Thursday, November 27, 2008

Tertekan

I'm physically tired...
mentally drained...
& hormonally unstable (yeah, blame the hormone).

Wish I can just lying in bed, doing nothing or lepak kat kedai mamak pekene teh tarik & 2 keping roti canai :D

However, tomorrow I have...
1 oral presentation...
1 class test...
& 1 assignment to be submitted.

Absolutely bad timing to feel depress.
So, here I am, writing the blog & struggling to fight the feeling away.
Purp, you're in UK, so forget the teh tarik & roti canai ok!

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Saya Mulan

Jumpa kuiz ni kat blog KTy. Teringin plak nak buat.

I was hoping the result would be Belle from 'Beauty & The Beast'...

but...

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Strong and spirited. You're no one's girly girl; actually you are very determined person with a strong sense of self. Never let go of that! The only thing that equals your sense of self is your family, but the traditions of society can always be bent to protect something or someone you love.



Ok gak tuh.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Frozen

Ohh... salji turun di Newscastle malam tadi. Tp tidak di Liverpool.

Malam td (seperti biasa), saya & rakan ke library.

Memang sejuk. Di dalam kesejukan itu, & dek krn kesejukan itu, boleh plak kawan saya berfikir nak bawak kereta ke tak. Saya pun cakap dgn dia, jika dialih bahasa ke BM, bunyinya lebih kurang begini, "Sambil ko pikir ni kan... kalau jalan kaki, kita dah sampai library."

Di sini ada dua library. Satu library tu mmg dekat giler dgn rumah kami, tapi buku-buku yg ada utk sastera & management, klu tak silap. Satu lagi dekat dengan department. Memandangkan kami perlu mencari buku, so kene lah pegi yg dekat dgn department, mengambil masa ~10 minit berjalan kaki.

Yer, malam minggu lepak kat library. Sungguh takde life kan! Orang library pun ada life, so hari Sabtu library tutup pukul 11pm. Terpaksa lah orang yang takde life macam kami, dgn berat hati menamatkan sesi perbincangan seawal 10.45pm.

Sabar... 4 minggu jer lagi.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Rehat sebentar

I've never been this busy!
Ungkap saya kepada seorang rakan beberapa hari lepas.

Hujung minggu yang dinanti-nanti, masih dinanti-nantikan tetapi bukan untuk berehat. Sebaliknya untuk menyiapkan assignment.

Saya penat.

Ada satu ketika saya rasa I'm not good enough. Rasa seperti mahu mengalah.

Mungkin mental saya tidak cukup kuat untuk menerima cabaran ini.

Ada pelajar yang lebih teruk, kata seorang rakan. Benar. Tapi membandingkan diri saya dgn pelajar lain tidak membantu menyiapkan assignment yang sedang beratur menanti giliran.

Rasanya seperti sudah lama saya meninggalkan sesi menelaah pelajaran. Akibatnya, saya sering merasa blur ketika di dalam kelas. Keutamaan saya ketika ini hanya lah menyiapkan assignment. Mungkin saya tidak bijak menguruskan masa. Tapi saya agak sibuk untuk mula belajar menguruskan masa ketika ini.

Otak saya tepu. Saya perlu rehat sebentar, beberapa jam atau beberapa hari. I wish! Walau bagaimanapun saya tekad untuk cuba menyiapkan salah satu assignment hari ni. Saya sangsi, tapi semangat itu yang penting kan. Mungkin malam ini seperti malam-malam kelmarin, saya akan tidur pada pukul ~3:00am.

Seperti biasa, esok kelas dari 10am hingga 5pm.

Apa pun sekarang, matlamat saya bukan sahaja berjaya menamatkan program ini, malahan berjaya mengekalkan kewarasan saya.

:)

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Secure your sh**!

Amaran: Pos ini mungkin memualkan sesetengah pihak.


"I thought you might be worried... about the security... of your sh*t."
- Brad Pitt as Chad in 'Burn After Reading'


Last Sunday, I've seen the biggest sh*t in my life.

I'm not talking implicitly.

There, it was stuck in a toilet bowl.

WTF! Who left it???

Maybe one of the Chineses, or maybe one of the Indians. They might pointed finger at me as well. That's another sh*t.

It had stuck there for the whole day. Flush wasn't do any good. I told ya, it was big. Luckily, there's another bathroom upstairs. I think the cleaner was the one who removed it on Monday.

The big sh*t wasn't just the problem. Tell you what, it wasn't even the first time. Somebody is a total a*shole with a big as*hole.

Last 2 weeks on Friday, someone threw food waste in the sink of the kitchen. The sink was very dirty & tersumbat for the whole weekend. I was so pissed-off. I had planned to cook nasi lemak on that weekend. Seriously.

Due to the condition of the sink, I canceled the plan.

Right until now, the plan to cook nasi lemak is postponed.

Yesterday, again, the sink was left dirty with food waste by someone. However, it wasn't so bad compare to the other day. Somehow the irresponsible person will keep doing it.

I don't want to talk about the shower room.

It is hard to live with 7 strangers.

God, please confer me with more patience.

Sunday, November 02, 2008

My life as a student...

Tarikh2 keramat...

10hb... Test on C++.
14hb... Due date C++ assignment.
18hb... Due date Verilog assignment.
21hb... Due date Research Skills - Literature Review assignment.
28hb... Research Skills Presentation.

Nmpk mcm lambt lg kn nak kene submit all the above assignments...

Hakikatnya masa yg diberi cukup2 sahaja to come up with a good design & report. A good design is one thing, a good report is another thing. I've been told that we actually need at least 4 days to work on the reflection of the report such as discussion & conclusion. Yeah, I've learned my lesson well from the previous assignment. I need more days to prepare the report.

For Research Skills subject, now we have to prepare the literature review on our MSc Project. Rasa macam program ni bukan shj taught program, tp taught+research program.

Writing literature review sounds easy, right? Yeah, that was what I thought at 1st... but it's not as easy as it sounds like. We have to prepare 4-5 pages, single line literature review ok. For this assignment we have to have at least 20 references! The references must be quoted in the text. Websites as reference is not encouraged. Meaning we have to read at least 20 papers/books. I'm not exaggerating. Aku baru baca 3 paper... hehehehe.

For Verilog, I haven't come out with the design yet. Have tried the basic code, it works. This is the 2nd assignment, sounds harder than the 1st one of course. Actually subjek ni memenatkan... every week we spend a lot of time on it. If there's no assignment, there'll be homework. Maybe I'll come out with the design during the lab. The lab session for this subject alone is 6 hours per week.

I have 7 subjects this semester! 1 subject basically 2 or 3 hours per week excluding lab session. Tarikh2 keramat kat atas, hanya utk 3 subjek... belum masuk lagi other assignments for other subjects yg bakal menyusul, maybe next week.

Besides the 7 subjects, kitorg jugak wajib attend department seminar every Thursday for 1 hour. We have to take notes of every seminar because there'll be assignment on it as well.

Everyday the class/lab is basically 10am-5pm, with just 1 or 2 hours break kecuali hari Rabu. La ni, balik kelas dah gelap sebab Maghrib pukul ~4:45pm. Hari Rabu relax lah sikit, sbb lab 2 jam jer. Tu yg sempat gi shopping. Klu takde kelas pun, kat lab still ramai student siapkan assignment/homework.

Kat sini klu hantar homework/assignment lambat, akan dikenekan penalty which is tolak markah. Tp aku tgk ramai jer yg dah due date pun, still struggle nak siapkan. Well, better late than 0 mark, rite.

I don't know how in the world some people say study here, in UK is easy, banyak masa free. Maybe in other universities??? But here in UoL, 1-year MSc course in engineering means you have to forget travel on weekend. It's unwise to take the whole weekend off with bundle of assignments waiting to be finished & a lot of subjects to revised. 6 minggu berlalu, aku masih terperap dalam Liverpool.

However, aku tak lah terkejut sgt dgn kesibukan program ni sbb I've been warned by an undergrad student who used to live with an ex-student of this program that I'll be very busy that I won't even have time to miss home & my family in Msia. She's absolutely right.

Don't take me wrong. I do miss home & my family... but I just dont have time to melayan perasaan itu ok. So, since the class has started, I never suffer from homesickness.

So, if you plan to undertake the same program, think again.
Well, if you somehow stuck in the program, I'm sure you'll manage just like I'll manage.
InsyaAllah.