Growing Up

Tetiba teringat suatu ketika di mana apabila keluar rumah, Honey akan membawa anak patung bersama. Bukan setakat 1, kadang² 3 sekali dibawanya. Penuh tempat duduk belakang dengan anak patung. Tapi ni bukan anak patung yang macam Barbie tu, more to teddy bear actually or soft dolls. Biasanya yang akan dibawa ialah Minnie, Bear & Bean. Ya, itu nama² yang dipanggil. I don't have the photo though. Too lazy to go upstairs.

Biasanya kami keluar rumah untuk ke taman permainan & makan. Bila nak pergi makan, Honey nak bawa anak² patungnya bersama. Kami hanya akan membenarkan 1 sahaja. Anak patung tu akan duduk di kerusi juga.

Satu hari tu kami ke KFC Serdang. Ya, jauh kami pergi untuk makan KFC, semata-mata sebab malas nak masuk shopping mall. Hari tu, Minnie makan bersama kami. Masa nak balik, ketika dalam kereta, tiba² Honey dok bising "Ni,  ni,  ni...". Mungkin kerana kekenyangan, kami lambat picked up apa yang cuba disampaikan oleh Honey. Suddenly, I was like, "Minnie!".  Tergesa² lah JD keluar dari kereta & masuk semula ke KFC. Walau bagaimanapun, Minnie tidak dijumpai. Honey dah sedih dah bila tau Minnie tak ada.

Rupa²nya Minnie ada dalam handbag aku. Mesti masa masukkan Minnie dalam handbag, aku dalam mode auto-pilot. Ya lah, Honey tau bawak je makan sekali, tapi masa balik tak peduli pun. Aku ni lah tukang kutip. Nasib baik ada handbag besar yang boleh muat.

Lucu pula bila teringat balik. Now Honey mungkin dah lupa pada Bear, Bean, Jubbi & Minnie. Tiada lagi anak patung makan bersama² kami.

One day, it'll come the day Honey stop requesting me to lie next to her & cuddle her when she wants to sleep. There'll be the day no more spending the evening at a playground or swimming pool. Now I feel it. Don't grow up too fast, dear. But, I'm certainly looking forward for the day Honey stop wearing diapers.

©2014 Posted from my Galaxy Note 8.0

Kindy Hunter: Part 1

On Monday, 13th of Oct, me & JD took a leave to settle a few things. Alang2 dah dua2 cuti, ajak JD survey tadika sekali. Jumaat sebelumnya, I called the kindies to get some basic ideas on what to expect. There were 3 kindies that I was interested with.

1. Ar Rayyan
2. Dzul Iman
3. Little Caliph

Asalnya nak tengok yg no 1 & 2 je. Ada tadika lain di kawasan perumahan aku ni, tapi kurang berminat pula. Yang no 3 tu aku tau ketika pulang rehat hari Jumaat yang sama. Ketika singgah ke kedai,  ternampak banner yang tadika ini akan dibuka untuk sesi 2015. Terus telefon nombor di banner & membuat temujanji untuk melawat tadika yang sama di kawasan perumahan yang berdekatan.

See, when I said I have lots of things on my mind, I wasn't exaggerating. Nak fikir kenduri, tadika Honey lagi... macam2 lah.

Hari Isnin seawal 7:15 pagi kami keluar rumah. Hantar anak2 dulu ke taska & terus menyelesaikan urusan rasmi yang telah dirancang. Selesai urusan & sarapan pagi, kami pun memulakan operasi survey kindy.

Kita sambung di part 2 k...
😆😏

Papa or Mama?

Out of blue, suddenly I heard Honey shouted at JD...

Honey: Papa, Honey yak!

Hmm... Good, I decided to ignore them.

JD: Honey yak? Biasa kalau Honey yak, Honey cari sape? Sape basuh yak Honey? Honey: Mama!

Still ignoring them. I wished I was invisible.

JD: Ha... Mama mana?
Honey: Ni...

I didn't look.

JD: Habis, tu sape?
Honey: Papa!

Even I didn't look, just by listening to the conversation I knew that Honey had twisted the fact by saying that JD was Mama instead of me & JD was trapped. I started giggling. However, JD wouldn't give up so easily.

JD: Kalau camtu suruh Papa lah...

Honey came to me & called me Papa. It was hard to ignore the grin on her cheeky  face. I laughed & she joined me. Pandai dah mengenakan orang, budak kecik ni.

If you're wondering who did clean up Honey afterwards, yes I did. Actually Honey still insisted JD to clean her up. Usually it was my job, but I guessed Honey just felt like she should give JD the 'opportunity'. But a mom will always be a mom, I offered myself cos setakat basuh yak anak, apa lah sangat kan. No sweat. 😷😂😅

©2014 Posted from my Xperia Z

Iman is 1

Alhamdulillah for a wonderful year with the lil Iman.

It's almost 1am but I'm kinda wide awake just to ensure I could update this blog on time which is on Iman's birthday. A bit late actually since 1 hour has passed & now Iman is 1 year old + 1 day.

Iman while fresh from oven, 1, 2 & 3 months old...

Iman at 4, 5, 6 & 7 months old...

Iman at 8, 9, 10 & 11 months old...

The birthday girl!

Happy birthday my lil Iman!! 🎂🎉🎁
Mama 💜💜💜💜💜 love 💝💝💝💝💝 you so much! 😍😘💞

©2014 Posted from my Xperia Z

Friday

What a good reminder!

Sometimes we feel like we don't have enough to give. We plan to wait until we have extra or more than enough, then only we can give.

Reminds me to one of the talk show on a radio that I've listened to sometimes ago. Rezeki (duit) bukannya berapa banyak yang kita ada, tapi rezeki adalah kecukupan. Walaupun sikit tapi  cukup, itu adalah rezeki yang berkat. Jadi jangan takut untuk berbelanja ke jalan Allah. InshaaAllah, masih cukup, takkan berkurang.

Bahasa mudah kita, kalau rezeki tak berkat, duit tu panas. Ntah mana pergi... asyik la tak cukup.

Ustaz tersebut bercerita setiap bulan, mereka menyewa bas untuk membawa pelajar² mereka. Sebenarnya asalnya mereka rasa tak cukup untuk menyewa bas, tetapi kerana memerlukan, mereka teruskan juga. Alhamdulillah, setiap bulan, ada duit untuk bayar sewa bas tersebut. Hinggalah ada seorang dermawan mendermakan sebuah bas kepada mereka. Jadi mereka tidak perlu menyewa lagi. Walau bagaimanapun, selepas itu tidak lah berlebih setiap bulan pendapatan mereka hasil tidak perlu menyewa bas lagi. Mana datangnya duit sewa bas selama ini? Ini satu contoh kecukupan yang Allah beri.

Pernah juga terbaca, salah satu tips untuk dimurahkan rezeki ialah banyak memberi sedekah. Ketika mencari pekerjaan tetap setelah habis belajar di universiti, aku didatangi seorang makcik menjual buku agama. Makcik tu kata membeli sambil bersedekah. Nilainya kalau tak silap RM10. Tak lah mahal & tak lah murah untuk orang yang belum mempunyai kerja tetap seperti aku waktu itu. Memang berkira² untuk membeli. RM10 tu boleh buat makan. Tetiba teringat tips yang pernah dibaca. Ya, bersedekahlah. Memang terfikir waktu itu, mungkin dengan memberi ni, Allah akan membuka pintu rezeki buat aku. Alhamdulillah.

Rasanya kita semua tau pasal ni. Cuma kadang2 terlupa. As I said, what a good reminder, right...

Jom baca al-Kahfi!

©2014 Posted from my Xperia Z

18/10/2014

الحمدلله، الحمدلله، الحمدلله...

Akhirnya event yang telah dirancang berbulan-bulan lamanya selesai juga. Lega! Rasa ringan kepala ni. Like I said in the previous post , it wasn't a grand event. Cuma tarikh telah ditentukan lebih awal & selagi tarikh tu tak kunjung tiba, selagi tu lah dok memikirkannya.

Seronok mengatasi penat. Puas, kerana hasilnya seperti yang dirancang. Paling penting, makanan cukup! Tu lah yang paling merisaukan. I think it's a nightmare for every concerned host.

Maybe I'll write about tips or do-s &  don't-s on organising such event. Although I had only 2 experiences, but I was responsibled from A to Z. So, I might have just a couple of experiences but the experiences are strong enough.

I plan to write in detail about this event since I think this is the last for the time being. Kalau ada pun lepas ni, mungkin sekadar makan² macam open house ke,  doa selamat atau tahlil... takde lah sampai pasang khemah. Nak buat kenduri macam ni lagi rasanya, tunggu budak² ni bertunang kot. Huhuu ~20 tahun lagi punya cerita, inshaaAllah.

Amal

"Dan segeralah kamu kepada (mengerjakan amal-amal yang baik untuk mendapat) keampunan dari Tuhan kamu, dan (mendapat) Syurga yang bidangnya seluas segala langit dan bumi, yang disediakan bagi orang-orang yang bertaqwa;

Iaitu orang-orang yang mendermakan hartanya pada masa senang dan susah, dan orang-orang yang menahan kemarahannya, dan orang-orang yang memaafkan kesalahan orang. Dan (ingatlah), Allah mengasihi orang-orang yang berbuat perkara-perkara yang baik;

Dan juga orang-orang yang apabila melakukan perbuatan keji, atau menganiaya diri sendiri, mereka segera ingat kepada Allah lalu memohon ampun akan dosa mereka - dan sememangnya tidak ada yang mengampunkan dosa-dosa melainkan Allah -, dan mereka juga tidak meneruskan perbuatan keji yang mereka telah lakukan itu, sedang mereka mengetahui (akan salahnya dan akibatnya).

Orang-orang yang demikian sifatnya, balasannya ialah keampunan dari Tuhan mereka, dan Syurga-syurga yang mengalir di bawahnya beberapa sungai, mereka kekal di dalamnya; dan yang demikian itulah sebaik-baik balasan (bagi) orang-orang yang beramal."
  -Al-Imran: 133-136

Honey = 3

Today Honey turns 3 years old. You're just 3, but I couldn't help smiling thinking how much you've grown up. 3 magical years, I'd say 😂😀🙆.

Whenever I'm thinking of you, I feel so blessed. You're not only have completed me, you're in fact the central of my life. I want the best for you, the best that can make you happy. I'll always be there for you, guide you & support you. I pray for your success in this life & afterlife.

I love you so much 😍💜!
Happy birthday my dear Honey!! 🎁🎉🎂

Tq Mak Mok for editing the pic & credit to Kakak for the tudung & 'makeup'.

Honey, be a good daughter & sis ok... We'll always love you. Sayang Honey!

©2014 Posted from my Xperia Z

Counting the days...

In approximately a month, Iman will turn 1, in less than 2 weeks, Honey will turn 3 & in 3 weeks, their birthday party will be held. Birthday party lah sangat... It's actually Iman's aqiqah ceremony. But since their birthdays are around the corner, I guess why not having a birthday party as well.

So I have lots in my mind rite now. Even though I've planned this since May, but still in these 3 weeks lots of thing needs to be done. Yeah, I'm slow like that. Well I have things to do other than organise a party... & don't forget I plan everything all alone. It's ok. It's kinda fun actually.

The doorgifts aren't ready, the additional menus aren't finalised yet & the place where I've planned to order the cake & other menus is closed due to the owner went to perform hajj. So I have to find other place. I need a PA that can make calls, place the order, sort things out & clean up the house. Ok I need a PA cum maid.

No, I don't plan a grand party. There'll be no character based theme, helium balloons, candy buffet & chocolate fountain. The main ceremony is still Iman's aqiqah but I also don't want the birthday party to be asal boleh je cos I think this is the only birthday party that I'll ever held for them unless they ask for it. Still I think it'll be a small one with a very limited guests which is only their friends.

Ready to be distributed...

I ordered these a month ago. Felt like it was still early but I proceeded anyway. Now, suddenly 1 month has passed away & 3 weeks left. Cliché but true, time flies so fast these days...

©2014 Posted from my Xperia Z

Biman

Biman atau sebenarnya Baby Iman adalah panggilan Honey kepada Iman. So sometimes we do call Iman as Biman. Tapi jarang lah, takut melekat lak panggilan tu.

By the way, the pics above were snapped by Honey. Suka main kamera henfon budak kecik tu. Siap "1, 2, 3 peace" lagi...

Ni lak cubaan Papa mengambil gambar menggunakan henfon baru. Aksi Iman di atas basikal ni hanya Papa je boleh buat. Papa yakin Papa dapat sambut kalau Iman jatuh.

Ini pula cubaan Mama untuk tangkap gambar gigi Iman. Boleh lah kan... nampak gak 2 batang gigi atasnya.

©2014 Posted from my Xperia Z

Tentang Iman

Semalam, genap umur Iman 10 bulan. Hari ini, mungkin hari terakhir aku menghantar EBM ke taska untuk Iman. Esok mungkin bermula hanya susu formula sebagai bekalan.

No more EBM stock in my fridge. 0! Still, I'm not ready to actually wean off Iman. Hope I can still breastfeed her even for just half the day until at least she's 1 year old. Huhuu... So I guess these 2 months will be a new chapter.

Well about Iman, alhamdulillah generally she's 1 healthy &  calm baby. Tak banyak ragam. Of course at 10 months old she's already crawling & standing up by holding to something. In fact she started crawling, betul2 merangkak, not just mengesot at 6 or 7 months old. Sekejap je Iman mengesot.

Gigi baru tumbuh 3 batang. 2 di atas & 1 di bawah. Alhamdulillah, looks like Iman doesn't have major teething problem like keep crying at night or frequent high fever.

Sama seperti Honey, Iman tak lah kuat makan. Nak makan ikut mood, kene pandai pilih timing & kalau makan pun tak banyak.

Last checkup was on 14/8. Her weight was 6.8kg. Ringan, tapi masih ok.

Iman ni mulut dia bising & kuat. Di rumah, suka juga mengacau Honey. Kalau dia tak kacau Honey, Honey pula yang kacau dia. Pantang kalau benda yang dia sedang main diambil. Pasti mengamuk. Masih lagi ada masalah separation anxiety especially di waktu pagi. Mesti menangis kalau aku hilang dari pandangan.

Apa pun, Iman adalah seorang bayi yang comel. Huhuu... Puji anak sendiri.

Kita comel ke??

Anak Mama, mesti lah comel...

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Fill In

Oh I really miss blogging. For me blogging is like a little escapade. It's like a brief session with my own personal free counselor. Ok, not everybody understands this.

It's Monday today & instead of feeling blues, I think I had worked my ass off. I had 3 discussions in the morning & checked my practical student's report in between. Haven't finished checking the report though.

Right now, I'm having a meeting with I.A.E.A staff. As usual, meeting is boring.

So many things that I wanna update in this blog especially about Iman. She's almost 10 months old now. There are lots to write about Honey as a nearly 3 years old toddler.

Hope more new posts will be here, consistently.

Until then, Happy Eid Mubarak. I know, it's too late, I know.

©2014 Posted from my Galaxy Note 8.0

Salam

Baru lepas menonton Wanita~Hari~Ini slot bertajuk Hidayah Ramadan. Benarlah, yang paling payah ialah istiqamah. Ketika di bulan Ramadan ni, membuka kalam Allah al-Quran & membacanya tidak lah sesukar mana. Alhamdulillah setiap hari pasti ada masa. Cabarannya ialah sesudah Ramadan. Masih mampukah istiqamah meneruskan rutin Ramadan? Mudah2an...

Ramadan datang lagi...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

السلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته

Alhamdulillah, berpeluang lagi menyambut Ramadan... InshaAllah.

Jam menunjukkan pukul 12:42 pagi tapi aku masih belum dapat melelapkan mata. Badan penat, tapi tetap lah tak boleh tido. Ya, aku sedikit nervous untuk berpuasa esok hari. Ada sedikit risau, takut memberi kesan kepada susu badan. Tapi apalah yang nak dirisaukan kan... sesungguhnya rezeki air susu itu sendiri daripada Allah. InshaAllah, kalau ada, ada lah. Kalau takde, sesungguhnya perancangan Allah itu yang terbaik. Cuma aku harap dipermudahkan untuk Iman.

Aku harap Ramadan kali ini, aku mampu menjadi lebih hampir kepadaNya. Tak dapat dinafikan, menjadi ibu kepada dua anak kecil adalah mencabar & memenatkan. Masa lapang yang ada seboleh2nya hanya untuk merehatkan badan, melapangkan fikiran & tidur. Terasa diri semakin jauh dariNya. Helaian al-Quran semakin kurang dibelek. Jauh di sudut hati tau penat hanya lah alasan. Tercari2 semangat yang kian luntur. Rasa malu kerana tak mampu istiqamah. Jadi, besar harapan Ramadan kali ini. Untuk kembali kepadaNya. Untuk menjadikan al-Quran sebagai BFF. Ya Allah, permudahkanlah. Beri lah hidayah kepada hamba Mu ini.

InshaAllah, mungkin berpuasa penuh lagi tahun ini. Jika ya, ini tahun ke-4 brturut2 aku berpuasa penuh. Cuma bezanya 3 tahun sebelum ini sebab 'berisi'. Tahun ni sebab bendera Jepun masih belum muncul sejak kelahiran Iman.

Ok, aku patut cuba tidur sekarang. Nanti tak boleh pulak bangun sahur.

Pesanan

Orang yang bernasib baik ada 3 golongan:

✏ Orang yang meredhai penciptanya sebelum dia mengadapNya.
✏ Orang yang berbuat baik kepada kedua ibu-bapanya sebelum mereka berpisah dengannya.
✏ Orang yang meninggalkan dunia sebelum dunia 'meninggalkan'nya.

♥♥♥♥♥

Redha manusia adalah suatu matlamat yang tak mampu dicapai...

Redha Allah adalah suatu matlamat yang tak boleh dicuai...

Maka tinggalkan apa yang tak mampu dicapai dan bersegeralah untuk mendapatkan kan apa yang tak boleh dicuai.

A Special Day For Mothers

Tomorrow is a mother's day. I guess now everybody understands that as Muslims it's ok to celebrate the day, with intention to make our mothers happy.

Now, I'm a mother of 2. A mother to a 2.5 years old toddler & a 6 months old baby, both girls.

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Ok today is Mother's Day. Yup I wrote the above paragraphs yesterday & somehow distracted & abandoned the drafted post.

Let's continue...

I meant to make a sweet post especially regarding my mother & all moms generally. But I guess, I'm not so in poetic mode right now, that I don't have enough words to describe how special Mak is. She is indeed. Despite her flaws, I wish I could be half she is. Cook a delicious home made meals for my children, always ensure the house is tidy & organize, wash the laundry & fold all the clothes, & the most important thing - support & always be there for my children. If I'm able to do that, without ashame I'd claim myself a supermom.

We maybe not supermoms, but I believe we mothers are superwomen. No matter how tired we are with the office work, we still come home, forget the tiredness & attend to our children's needs. There's no such thing like leave-me-alone-I-wanna-rest. For stay-at-home moms, you raise the children yourself, all of your time is dedicated to your children even if you're sick, but never get bored. Salute to you.

To all women who long to be mothers, but haven't had the opportunity (yet), maybe you're single or married with no children, hang in there, keep on praying. The time will come & it'll be the best time. Have faith. After all, the long itself makes you a mother inside.

Happy Mother's Day to all of us!



Honey

Iman

A happy mother

Oh What A Day!

Esok keje. Actually I already planned to take a leave but have to cancel it due to lotsa work at office rite now.

Teringat hari Jumaat yang lalu. I had 3 meetings. The 1st meeting started at 9am & scheduled to be finished at 10:00am. But until 10:30am it still hadn't finish that I had to remind the chairman to adjourn the meeting because we were supposed to have another meeting at 10:30am.

Basically the attendance for the 2nd meeting was the same with the additional of 4 persons & I was the chairman of the 2nd meeting. I though it'd be a simple meeting, just went thru a contract that had been drafted by me. It was Friday where lunch break started at 12:15pm. But my meeting was finished at 1pm! Huhuu... the contract really takes my time & I hate taking other people's time as well. Glad that I have colleagues that are very supportive.

The lunch break was until 2:45pm. Then at 3:30pm, I had another meeting which finished at 5pm.

Before the meetings, I managed to do some works & pump. Thanks to Freestyle ;-).

Those who say that civil servants are not busy are totally wrong. At least me & my colleagues are busy.

Later, at around 5:30pm, I went home, picked up Honey & Iman, & changed to mommy's sleeve.

Tomorrow will be another day. InshaAllah. Semoga dipermudahkan.

A Short Break at Genting Highland

This was Iman's 1st holiday. Like she cares right. Actually, it was JD's idea. If it was up to me, I'd wait until Iman can walk just like Honey's 1st holiday. So off we went to Genting because we thought Honey would enjoy it. Of course we do know that even spending time at Kidzoona would make Honey happy. Fine, just a playground nearby would satisfy Honey.

Ok back to the plan, I guess why not. It'd be such an experience to bring a baby for a holiday, even a short one. As my principle when it comes to a holiday, the more the merrier, so I asked Kak Ty & Apit to join us.

We all sampai pukul 12. Boleh terus check in. But we decided to head directly to the indoor theme park. As expected, Honey enjoyed most of the ride.


In fact, all of us enjoyed the ride.


Lepas main & lunch, hampir pukul 3, kitorang pun ke bilik. Pukul 5, keluar balik, sambung main & dinner. 7:45pm balik bilik.

Pukul 9pm, JD & Honey keluar berdua jalan-jalan.


Tinggal lah Mama & Iman yang dah tido.


I guess this is the typical family holiday with a baby. Cannot be together all the time. Huhuu, ni yang buat rasa cepat lah Iman besar. Just like JD said, there are many activities we can do there besides enjoying the theme park like watching movie & playing bowling. Tapi kene lah tunggu budak2 besar dulu kan. Baru lah sesuai.

Esoknya, kami turun breakfast pukul 9am. Pukul 12 kami checked out. Honey & Iman mabuk. Dua2 muntah on the way turun dari Genting. Ok cancel pergi Cameron. Like it's on the plan, hehee.

Bila dah bad mood, dua2 nak kat Mama aje. Iman yang kecik pun tak mau kalah. Mengamuk nak tidur, tapi nak aku gak yang dodoikan. Yang kakaknya, nak tidur berbantalkan peha Mama gak. Masing2 sombong dengan Mak Mok. Masa pergi ok je. Ni lah ragam budak2. Tak boleh nak jangka.

Ok next holiday, tunggu dua2 besar.

MH370

2 weeks after MH370 went missing, last night our PM announced that the flight has ended in the southern Indian Ocean & there are no survivors. It's a sad news indeed.

These 2 weeks, I think more Malaysians become expert in aviation & more knowledge in Geography are gained. To be honest, I don't really follow all the news, or be more specific, the speculations regarding the missing of MH370. I prefer to just stick with the official news. However being a pessimist, I do doubt that we'll ever find the flight & my question is what if we'd never found it.

I guess now my question is answered. The official annoucement are made last night. Even there's no solid evidence that the flight had crashed in the ocean but this is the closure.

Al-Fatihah to all Muslim passengers and crews of flight MH370. May Allah give strength to all the family members for their lost.

إنالله وإنا إليه راجعون...

:'(

My~Dear Sale

After 2 years, last Saturday we went My~Dear Warehouse Sale for the 2nd time.


Dah seminggu, sale pun dah nak habis, baru nak cerita.

Memang tertunggu² sale kali ini kerana dah target nak beli safety gate. 2 tahun yang lalu pun beli safety gate, tapi itu untuk letak di tangga bahagian bawah.


Safety gate di tingkat bawah. Honey ketika kecil yang memang tak puas hati tengok gate tu.
Kali ni nak letak di tingkat atas pula.


Ada gate di tingkat atas, mudah sikit kami nak bersiap pergi kerja. Boleh tinggalkan pintu bilik terbuka. Kalau Honey bangun tidur, tak bimbang dia akan turun bawah sendiri. Kalau aku di bawah, Hani panggil pun boleh dengar sebab pintu bilik tak tertutup.

Biasalah target safety gate, terbeli juga benda lain.


Tapi Honey tak mau main dalam rumah mainan ni. Dia tak reti lagi main pondok². JD pun dah cakap dia nak simpan, tunggu Honey besar sikit baru pasang balik. I think that's better. Bila Honey & Iman dah besar, mesti diorang seronok ada rumah mainan ni.

Pengalaman Bersalinkan Iman

Seperti ketika bersalinkan Honey, aku memilih Hospital~Putrajaya di bawah skim FPP untuk bersalinkan Iman. Masih memilih Dr~Hamidah. Aku dimasukkan ke wad pada pukul 4pm hari Jumaat, 25/10/2013 setelah ada pendarahan & contraction. Ini adalah pengalaman baru bagi aku sebab ketika bersalinkan Honey, aku tidak merasai tanda2 kelahiran. Agak panik sikit bila melihat darah yang keluar & merasakan contraction. Ketika itu bukaan baru 2cm

Selepas Maghrib, contraction semakin kuat. Memang tak mampu untuk tidur atau berehat kerana asyik beralih posisi bagi menahan kesakitan. Aku dapat rasakan lambat lagi bersalin sebab contraction berlaku dalam 8-10 minit sekali. Tak dapat bayangkan macam mana sakitnya kalau betul² dah hampir bersalin. Aku siap google adakah normal sakit yang aku rasai ketika itu. Dapat aku rumuskan, kalau kembar darah memang sakit.

Dalam pukul 9 rasanya, seorang jururawat datang. Melihat muka aku yang berkerut, dia bertanya sakit ke. Aku mengiyakan. Jururawat tersebut memberitahu dia akan memanggil doktor untuk membuat VE (vaginal examination). Tak lama kemudian datang seorang doktor perempuan bertanya aku tak kisah ke doktor lelaki untuk VE kerana disebabkan aku under FPP, hanya doktor pakar senior yang dibolehkan & yang bertugas pada malam itu hanya doktor lelaki. Aku jawab kisah, kalau boleh nak doktor perempuan juga.

Dalam pukul 10:00 aku telah dipanggil untuk VE. Pemeriksaan telah dijalankn oleh doktor perempuan yang bertugas di Dewan Bersalin. Bukaan dah 4cm. Aku terus meminta epidural. Pukul 11, aku telah dihantar ke Dewan Bersalin menggunakan kerusi roda. Di Dewan Bersalin aku ditempatkan di dalam bilik bersalin. Dr Hamidah melakukan VE. Katanya mungkin pukul 4am aku akan bersalin. Malam itu aku bermalam di bilik bersalin.

Ketika itu contraction makin kerap, dalam 6-8 minit sekali. Sakitnya begitu intense & lama. Rasanya seperti perut, abdomen & punggung ditarik/direntap dari pelbagai arah. Badan penat, mata mengantuk tetapi untuk tidur adalah mustahil dengan contraction yang dirasai tika itu. Pukul 1am, seorang doktor lelaki muda datang & bertanya berat & tinggi aku serta mengambil carta CTG. Akhirnya, pukul 2am doktor pakar bius datang untuk memasang catheter bagi epidural. Alhamdulillah kesan epidural cepat dirasai. Ya Allah, lega sungguh rasanya. Syukur sangat. Dah tak sakit barulah boleh tidur.

Nyenyak sungguh aku tidur sehinggalah pukul 4am, JD datang. Tiada doktor melakukan pemeriksaan. Kerana terlalu mengantuk, tak larat nak fikir, aku tertidur semula & bangun pukul 6:15. JD yang menemani aku dari pukul 4am tadi juga turut terjaga dari tidur. Dr~Hamidah datang pukul 6:30 rasanya & melakukan VE. Beliau memberitahu, bukaan aku lambat & mungkin tak sempat sambut baby kerana beliau ada urusan lain pada pukul 11. Doktor pakar lelaki akan menggantikan beliau. Aku memberitahu tidak mahu doktor lelaki.

Pukul 7am, aku telah di'induce' bagi mempercepatkan kelahiran. Alhamdulillah, pukul 8:30 bukaan sudah 6cm. Pukul 9am, doktor memberitahu dah buka 9cm. Kerana kesan epidural, aku tidak merasa sakit tetapi ada rasa seperti ingin membuang air besar. Akhirnya tepat pukul 10:06am, Iman selamat dilahirkan dengan bantuan vakum setelah beberapa kali push.

Alhamdulillah, bukan sahaja Dr~Hamidah sempat menyambut kelahiran Iman, malah sempat menyudahkan jahitan. Pukul 10:50am, selesai semuanya.

Mungkin bagi sesetengah orang takde lah sakit sangat nak bersalin. Aku kira itu bahagian masing². Tak perlu lah kita mempertikaikannya. Yang penting, pengalaman bersalinkan Iman adalah antara kenangan paling manis dalam hidup.

Next post, I'll write about the comparison between cesarean operation & normal delivery based on my experience.

Rumble Tuff Serene Express VS Medela Freestyle

Rumble Tuff Serene Express (RT)...


Medela Freestyle (FS)...



Pics are googled.
This review is solely from my experience.

Bertambah ke production EBM (expressed breast milk) bila pakai FS?

1st time pakai FS which was on Monday, 20/1, 1st time pam dapat 5oz. Of course la suka hati kan. But then, dapat 3oz je. Ni for both breasts tau & after power pumping. Keesokan harinya, production makin kurang. Dapat 2 - 3oz aje. Hari Rabu, cuma dapat 2oz. So, that was it. I decided to take pills. Tak larat nak stressed tengok hasil skit. Dah lah hari Jumaat tu nak naik keje. Semangat ni nak buat stok.

So I guess, we can conclude that it's not about the pump. Mahal ke, murah ke, bergantung kepada tuan punya badan jugak.

Ok tu dari segi production susu. Lebih kurang sama je. Tapi semestinya lah kalau buat double pumping susu lagi lebih.

Dari segi masa mengepam, memang FS la menang since I can do double pumping easily & comfortably.

I think the handsfree kit really defines the FS pump. It does work as expected & really comfortable to wear. Some people said agak leceh nak pakai handsfree tu. Bagi aku, aku rela take a few minutes to adjust the handsfree daripada kene pegang pam.

Selain daripada boleh freestyle, aku suka FS ni sebab parts dia besar² & semua reachable untuk dibasuh. Takde part yang kecik atau ruang yang susah nak diberus.

Yang lain, actually lebih kurang je dengan RT. RT wins in term of features since we can set an alarm. Dua² tak sakit bila mengepam. Bunyi pun lebih kurang sama.

Most importantly, of course RT wins in term of the price. It's really affordable compare to FS.

Kesimpulannya, from my point of view..

Kelebihan RT:
> Less expensive.
> Closed system.
> Swift & natural expression.

Kelemahan RT:
> No handsfree kit.
> Ada part yang kecil & susah nak basuh.

Kelebihan FS:
> Handsfree kit that really works.
> Part yang besar & senang dibasuh.
> Comes with rechargeable battery that lasts long.
> Motor lebih kecil, senang nak pegang & boleh sangkut kat pinggang seluar/kain.

Kelemahan:
> Mahal gila.
> Opened system.

So, which one is the winner?

Bila fikir soal harga, aku rasa seri. Tak boleh lah nak expect RT works exactly like FS tapi dengan harga yang jauh lebih murah kan. RT pun tak banyak kekurangan compare to FS, so actually RT can win. Kalau beli handsfree kit, I'd recommend Pumpin'~Pal, & if the handsfree kit actually works, RT will absolutely is the winner.

Kalau tolak soal harga, FS is the winner. I'm not really convinced other handsfree kit will work as good as FS. The pump stays, tak risau nak bergerak ke sana sini. Tunduk sikit pun takpe. Part yang besar² & senang dibasuh is the biggest advantage. Apa pun, I'd say, by using FS there's less hassle to pump & wash afterwards. Memang sesuai untuk orang yang kurang rajin macam aku ni tapi perlu jadi pengepam tegar sebab production susu yang kurang lumayan. Takpe lah, sikit pun rezeki juga. Alhamdulillah.

I'd say, dua² memang berbaloi beli. Since dah ada FS, as in the previous post, I'd like to let go the RT. Check the previous post ok kalau berminat nak beli preloved RT breast pump-duo.

Rumble Tuff Electric Breast Pump Duo to let go

Hari tu excited semacam introducing this pump as my new toy. La ni nak jual plak? Mesti ada something wrong.

No, no... takde masalah pun pam ni. Yang bermasalah ialah aku. Ok kita lupakan sekejap masalah aku tu. Let's talk about apa yang bestnya pam ni.

Memang ringan. Ada timer yang membolehkan kita tau da berapa lama kita pam. Dulu, masa pakai Spectra~3, bila nak start pumping je kene tengok jam dulu. Kadang² terlupa nak tengok jam masa start, terpaksa la agak² je. Tak pun, guna timer henpon. With this RT pump, on aje, the LCD displays the timer. Boleh set alarm gak untuk next pumping session & boleh save into memory. Tapi yang alarm & memory ni aku tak pernah cuba. Tak habis explore lagi.

Dari segi expression, mula2 dia akan stimulate for 15 seconds using reflex expression, then automatic change to swift expression. Pastu boleh tukar ke natural expression or toggle between them ikut kesesuaian kita. I like both expressions, swift & natural, so just pilih ikut mood aje. From my experience, dua2 boleh hasilkan LDR (let-down reflex). Ada 8 level expression. Biasanya aku guna level 4 atau 5 je.

Paling penting, RT ni closed system. Tak perlu risau air masuk tiub & merosakkan motor.

Overall aku puas hati dengan pam ni & I still remember the 1st time I used the pump. I was really impress with the features & the soft smooth expression.


Preloved Rumble Tuff
Cuma satu je masalah. Pam ni tak datang dengan handsfree kit. So, instead of double, I just used single pumping. Tak reti nak pegang dua² pam dengan 1 tangan. Pernah cuba sekali, rasa sangat tak selesa. Nak cuit hidung pun tak boleh sebab dua² tangan dok pegang pam.

Masalah aku adalah sebulan sebelum masuk kerja, I found out production susu tak semeriah mana walaupun dah makan macam² & spent sejam buat power pumping alternate left & right. Rasa macam hampir demotivated. So I thought I really need to do double pumping. Lagipun terfikir bila naik keje nanti, there are lots of work waiting for me. I don't think I have so much ample time to pump & single pumping certainly is not the option for a long term.

Memang ada jual handsfree kit yang boleh pakai untuk apa² jenis pam like Simple~Wishes & Pumpin'~Pal. Aku hampir nak membelinya. Tapi bila baca review kat Amazon, ada yang kata tak ok. Kalau beli gak & turns out it doesn't work as expected, mau terus merudum semangat. I desperately need a motivation.

So, I needed that breastpump & I just couldn't get the idea out of my head. Seemed like it was the only solution. Setelah berfikir sedalam²nya, buat kira², akhirnya seminggu sebelum aku masuk kerja, I decided to close my eyes & buy that pump...


Medela~Freestyle! Now no more problem to perform double pumping.
Aku anggap ini rezeki Iman. Duit boleh dicari selagi hidup tapi tempoh penyusuan susu ibu hanya 2 tahun. So let's seize the moment. Lupakan keinginan yang lain. InshaAllah will try my best to maintain the production for Iman's sake.

Ok back to the RT, special price untuk para pembaca sekalian... macam la ada reader blog ni ya. Ok to the reader & those who stumble upon this blog, RM330 (tidak termasuk postage) for full set of the pump. The price is negotiable. Pam hanya digunakan selama 2 1/2 bulan, tu pun bukan tiap² hari. All the components are in good condition & packed into the original box just like brand new. Even plastic kat LCD display pun tak cabut lagi. Silicone cushion hanya pernah pakai sekali, tu pun sebelah aje. Valve & o-ring spare tak pernah pakai lagi. Warranty until Sept 2014. Boleh COD area Putrajaya, Bangi & Kajang.

Kepada yang berminat boleh email ke yusslida@gmail.com atau whatsapp ke no. 0134785739.

Next post I'll write about RT vs. Medela FS. Tunggu...

All of us are good moms. Don't judge!

To the mom who's breastfeeding: Way to go! It really is an amazing gift to give your baby, for any amount of time that you can manage! You're a good mom.

To the mom who's formula feeding: Isn't science amazing? To think there was a time when a baby with a mother who couldn't produce enough would suffer, but now? Better living through chemistry! You're a good mom.

To the cloth diapering mom: Fluffy bums are the cutest, and so friendly on the bank account. You're a good mom.

To the disposable diapering mom: Damn those things hold a lot, and it's excellent to not worry about leakage and laundry! You're a good mom.

To the mom who stays home: I can imagine it isn't easy doing what you do, but to spend those precious years with your babies must be amazing. You're a good mom.

To the mom who works: It's wonderful that you're sticking to your career, you're a positive role model for your children in so many ways, it's fantastic. You're a good mom.

To the mom who had to feed her kids from the drive thru all week because you're too worn out to cook or go grocery shopping: You're feeding your kids, and hey, I bet they aren't complaining! Sometimes sanity can indeed be found in a red box with a big yellow M on it. You're a good mom.

To the mom who gave her kids a homecooked breakfast lunch and dinner for the past week: Excellent! Good nutrition is important, and they're learning to enjoy healthy foods at an early age, a boon for the rest of their lives. You're a good mom.

To the mom with the kids who are sitting quietly and using their manners in the fancy restaurant: Kudos, it takes a lot to maintain order with children in a place where they can't run around. You're a good mom.

To the mom with the toddler having a meltdown in the cereal aisle: they always seem to pick the most embarrassing places to lose their minds don't they? We've all been through it. You're a good mom.

To the moms who judge other moms for ANY of the above? Glass houses, friend. Glass houses.

Source: "Mother's Notebook" FB page

1st Day

This Monday will be the 1st day I send Iman to the day care. Alhamdulillah, kali ni perasaan lebih tenang. Mungkin kerana dah biasa dengan taska tu & cikgu2nya. They are no longer stranger to me like when I 1st sent Honey to the day care.

Still I feel nervous. Kali ni nervous sebab Iman biasa menyusu badan. Nasib baik Iman takde masalah menyusu botol. Cuma nampak lah dia lagi suka menyusu badan. Aku bagi botol pun sekali sehari je, tu pun malam. Sekadar melatih Iman menggunakan botol. Tak pernah lagi sepanjang siang menyusukan hanya dengan menggunakan botol. So tak tau lah camna penerimaan Iman.

Another challenge is packing for 2. I'm like should I use 2 bags or should I just compress everything into a single bag. I prefer the later since there will be another bag which is cooler bag to store my EBM.

At the same time, I'm a bit excited too since packing EBMs is a new experience to me. I really wanna write about my breastfeeding journey with Iman so far. Tak tau lah bila.

One more thing, it must be weird for Honey to have her lil sis at the day care as well. Am looking forward to see her reaction.

Farm & The City

I guess being a mother really makes us think less about ourselves & think more about our children. At least, since I become a mother, when I have to think what I wanna do on my special day, I just wanna Honey to enjoy herself.

So today I decided to bring Honey to Farm~In~The~City, a mini petting zoo located at Seri Kembangan. Yup we do have a zoo nearby. I just found out about the place a few days ago. Kinda eager to check the place out & let Honey interacts with the animals.

The entrance fee for adult is RM30. Am not sure for kids since cos Honey & Iman are still small, it's free.




No picture of Iman though cos she just spent her time lying & sleeping in the stroller. However, she seemed to enjoy the trip as well by being a good baby.