Pengalaman Bersalinkan Iman

Seperti ketika bersalinkan Honey, aku memilih Hospital~Putrajaya di bawah skim FPP untuk bersalinkan Iman. Masih memilih Dr~Hamidah. Aku dimasukkan ke wad pada pukul 4pm hari Jumaat, 25/10/2013 setelah ada pendarahan & contraction. Ini adalah pengalaman baru bagi aku sebab ketika bersalinkan Honey, aku tidak merasai tanda2 kelahiran. Agak panik sikit bila melihat darah yang keluar & merasakan contraction. Ketika itu bukaan baru 2cm

Selepas Maghrib, contraction semakin kuat. Memang tak mampu untuk tidur atau berehat kerana asyik beralih posisi bagi menahan kesakitan. Aku dapat rasakan lambat lagi bersalin sebab contraction berlaku dalam 8-10 minit sekali. Tak dapat bayangkan macam mana sakitnya kalau betul² dah hampir bersalin. Aku siap google adakah normal sakit yang aku rasai ketika itu. Dapat aku rumuskan, kalau kembar darah memang sakit.

Dalam pukul 9 rasanya, seorang jururawat datang. Melihat muka aku yang berkerut, dia bertanya sakit ke. Aku mengiyakan. Jururawat tersebut memberitahu dia akan memanggil doktor untuk membuat VE (vaginal examination). Tak lama kemudian datang seorang doktor perempuan bertanya aku tak kisah ke doktor lelaki untuk VE kerana disebabkan aku under FPP, hanya doktor pakar senior yang dibolehkan & yang bertugas pada malam itu hanya doktor lelaki. Aku jawab kisah, kalau boleh nak doktor perempuan juga.

Dalam pukul 10:00 aku telah dipanggil untuk VE. Pemeriksaan telah dijalankn oleh doktor perempuan yang bertugas di Dewan Bersalin. Bukaan dah 4cm. Aku terus meminta epidural. Pukul 11, aku telah dihantar ke Dewan Bersalin menggunakan kerusi roda. Di Dewan Bersalin aku ditempatkan di dalam bilik bersalin. Dr Hamidah melakukan VE. Katanya mungkin pukul 4am aku akan bersalin. Malam itu aku bermalam di bilik bersalin.

Ketika itu contraction makin kerap, dalam 6-8 minit sekali. Sakitnya begitu intense & lama. Rasanya seperti perut, abdomen & punggung ditarik/direntap dari pelbagai arah. Badan penat, mata mengantuk tetapi untuk tidur adalah mustahil dengan contraction yang dirasai tika itu. Pukul 1am, seorang doktor lelaki muda datang & bertanya berat & tinggi aku serta mengambil carta CTG. Akhirnya, pukul 2am doktor pakar bius datang untuk memasang catheter bagi epidural. Alhamdulillah kesan epidural cepat dirasai. Ya Allah, lega sungguh rasanya. Syukur sangat. Dah tak sakit barulah boleh tidur.

Nyenyak sungguh aku tidur sehinggalah pukul 4am, JD datang. Tiada doktor melakukan pemeriksaan. Kerana terlalu mengantuk, tak larat nak fikir, aku tertidur semula & bangun pukul 6:15. JD yang menemani aku dari pukul 4am tadi juga turut terjaga dari tidur. Dr~Hamidah datang pukul 6:30 rasanya & melakukan VE. Beliau memberitahu, bukaan aku lambat & mungkin tak sempat sambut baby kerana beliau ada urusan lain pada pukul 11. Doktor pakar lelaki akan menggantikan beliau. Aku memberitahu tidak mahu doktor lelaki.

Pukul 7am, aku telah di'induce' bagi mempercepatkan kelahiran. Alhamdulillah, pukul 8:30 bukaan sudah 6cm. Pukul 9am, doktor memberitahu dah buka 9cm. Kerana kesan epidural, aku tidak merasa sakit tetapi ada rasa seperti ingin membuang air besar. Akhirnya tepat pukul 10:06am, Iman selamat dilahirkan dengan bantuan vakum setelah beberapa kali push.

Alhamdulillah, bukan sahaja Dr~Hamidah sempat menyambut kelahiran Iman, malah sempat menyudahkan jahitan. Pukul 10:50am, selesai semuanya.

Mungkin bagi sesetengah orang takde lah sakit sangat nak bersalin. Aku kira itu bahagian masing². Tak perlu lah kita mempertikaikannya. Yang penting, pengalaman bersalinkan Iman adalah antara kenangan paling manis dalam hidup.

Next post, I'll write about the comparison between cesarean operation & normal delivery based on my experience.

38 Weeks ++

So, now I'm on a pregnancy phase that is new to me. Masa Honey dulu, aku bersalin secara cesarean genap usia kandungan 38 minggu. Ni da terlebih beberapa hari.

Ntah lah, sejujurnya masih belum bersedia untuk bersalin. Rasa macam masih banyak kerja yang perlu diselesaikan. At the office, I still work my ass off. Semalam, ketika jam hampir 5:30 petang, baru teringat macam mana kalau tetiba bersalin weekend ni atau pun ketika cuti raya haji nanti. Ada beberapa kerja yang belum diserahkan. The best I can do yesterday was to separate all the documents that need attention while I am on maternity leave. So, I guess kalau tetiba terberanak, I just give a call & ask my colleagues to take over the docs. Tu nasib baik teringat. Kalau tak, memang bakal menyusahkan diri sendiri. Hmmm, however don't take me wrong. Not that I'm not ready to carry this baby on my arm. I guess being last minute person I am & my tendency to procrastinate, it's just natural for me to act this way. Masa Honey dulu pun, last minute prepare gak. Even a day before the operation day, I still came to the office & worked!

Ada juga sedikit rasa tak sabar bila mengenangkan keadaan diri yang agak berat & perut yang besar. Worse, my whole body feels itchy. Mula2, selepas minggu 34, cuma gatal di perut & pangkal peha je. Masuk minggu 37, semua tempat gatal. Tak tahan so garu gak la especially tang perut & peha walaupun buruk rupanya nanti. Basically, I'm healthy. I still can walk around without any difficulty. Tapi bila tido terasa juga sakit badan. Bila nak tukar position tido terasa tegang urat bahu & belakang dicampur dengan rasa lenguh kaki. There are times, despite feeling tired, I just couldn't sleep.

However, I'd like to cherish this pregnancy experience. So it's ok if the baby decides to stay inside a bit longer. Take your time baby. We gonna have a long journey together once you meet the world, inshaAllah.

Finally, The New Toy...

At week 34, finally I've made up my mind on which breastpump to buy...

Jeng jeng jeng...

I choose Rumble~Tuff!

Senang hati dah... kalau tak, dok la menggoogle pasal breast pump. Ada 1 masa rasa nk pejam mata je sambar Medela FS. Nasib baik walaupun mata pejam, mind tetap sedar keadaan poket.

Kenapa pilih RT? The main reason is after weighing all the pros & cons, I think it's safe to choose a breastpump with a close-system, hence no backflow. Ini juga adalah salah satu sebab ralat nak beli Medela FS... mahal gila tapi open-system.



Lepas da decide, start googling for the best offer. Akhirnya, beli di salah satu kedai baby di BBB. Yang aku beli ni motor baru katanya di mana senyap sedikit & lebih high performance. Cara nak kenal dengan melihat kedudukan tulisan Rumble~Tuff. Kalau yang lama kedudukannya betul2 di bawah LCD display masih dalam lingkungan oval shape & lebih kecil.

Ok, set untuk berpantang pun dah beli. Tapi tak beli 1 set, beli loose item je.


It's time to pack the bag. Btw, I had checkup last Wednesday. Berat baby da 2.4kg.

Breast Pump

Ok, let's talk about breast pump. Finally.

Time is running out & I certainly need to make up my mind as soon as possible.

Dulu masa Honey, aku guna Spectra 3. I was satisfied with the performance. The 3rd nite after Honey was born, I already used it due to engorged breast. 1 week after, I was on antibiotic due to fungal infection & the breast pump became my best friend since I couldn't breastfeed Honey. So yes, I think breast pump should be in the to-buy/have list before deliver.

It was a good breast pump. However, after using it I know I want a breast pump with at least the same performance but lighter & can be battery operated. So when a colleague requested me to sell the breast pump, I was happy to let it go.

So now I need to buy a new breast pump. Before, my target was Medela~Swing. However, after sometimes, I think it's better to buy a double breast pump instead of single. My budget remains the same, below RM700. The cheaper the better. Hehee. So Freestyle is a big no no.

So fine, I want a cheap but good, light & can be battery-operated double breast pump. I'm torn between 2 options rite now... MiPump & Rumble~Tuff.

¤ 1st Year~MiPump


Pros:
- Less parts to wash
- Soft suction (some says like Freestyle)
- Less noise
- T~handle to perform double pumping

Cons
- Possibility of backflow into the tube
- Less features

¤ Rumble~Tuff


Pros:
- Many features
- No backflow
- Manual operated option
- More reviews from local mommies

Cons:
- Noisy
- Many parts

Rite until now I haven't decided. Dua2 ada kelebihan & kekurangan. Sometimes I think I'd go with MiPump cos less parts need to be washed & I like the handle idea but sometimes I think I prefer RT cos of the many good reviews from local moms & the features. Seriously, tak tau nak pilih yang mana. Kalau ada yang fikir, iyer2 je dok survey breast pump, tapi tak breastfeeding pun... huhuu well, kalau aku berjaya fully breastfeed masa Honey dulu takde la susah2 tak tau nak pilih macam sekarang. Memang amik Freestyle dah. Sebab pernah gagal la takut nak beli mahal2 but still I'm hoping I can make it this time. Kene think +ve kan...

Less Than 2 Months

السلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته

Hello, hello, hello...

Tinggal kurang daripada 2 bulan aku akan dijangka bersalin. Nervous, at the same time excited. Nervous sebab inshaaAllah this will be my 1st experience having a normal labour. Excited sebab tak sabar2 juga untuk tidak berperut buncit seperti sekarang. Perut kali ni jauh lebih besar daripada ketika mengandungkan Honey dulu, di mana sedikit sebanyak agak menyukarkan pergerakan. Atau pun aku yang tak fit sebagai ibu mengandung. Ntah lah.

Maknanya kurang 2 bulan juga Honey akan berumur 2 tahun. Honey masih lagi bangun malam untuk menyusu. Tidur pun masih celah ketiak. Kalau tak celah ketiak, suka menghimpit. Nak buat camna, budak manja. Memang manja sungguh. This is one of the things that makes me nervous. Tak tau lah camna penerimaan Honey bila ada adik nanti, bila Mama & Papa tak dapat tumpukan perhatian kat dia macam sekarang.

Dari segi persiapan untuk menyambut kelahiran anak kedua ni, agak slow sikit. Alhamdulillah, baju dah beli. Tapi botol susu, breast pump & set berpantang belum beli lagi. Nasib baik barang2 lain just recycle yang Honey punya. Hari tu cakap nak buat post pasal breast pump, tapi nampak gayanya masa masih belum mengizinkan.

Ok, till next time...

Cerita pasal mengandung kali ini

I'm expecting a girl!

Yup, it means Honey's gonna have a lil sis. Lama da tau, cuma takde masa nak menulis, atau lebih tepat takde mood. I guess symptom biasa orang pregnant - malas tulis blog. Btw, now da minggu ke-27 pun mengandung.

¤ mengidam

So far takde la mengidam yang pelik2. Kalau nak makan pun, makanan yang biasa2 je & takde la sampai malam2 buta atau keliling satu bandar mencari. Tapi sama macam Honey dulu, aku mengidam tablet. Huhuu... kali ni Galaxy~Note 8.0 lak. JD pun tak larat dengar, layankan je lah.


Best hokay GNote8 ni. Aku jumpa ebook app yang boleh download buku2 yang popular. Da lama gila tak baca novel. Now da ada ebook app tu, it's so convenient to do so.

¤ checkup

After discussing with JD, I guess we'd still choose HPJ under FPP to deliver this baby. Masih memilih Dr Hamidah. Start checkup under FPP masa minggu ke 16 kot. Sebelum tu checkup kat Annur. Since I have a good history, no complication whatsoever, Dr Hamidah gives me freedom to do the checkup at any place I prefer to. So still continue checking up at Annur. Not that I prefer Annur, it just that I already had an appointment to perform detailed scan at Annur during week 21 of pregnancy. Alhamdulillah, results from the detailed scan show that the baby is ok... InshaaAllah.

¤ barang2 baby

Tak beli lagi. Kalau ikutkan just nak beli baju & diapers for newborn je. Ni untungnya anak rapat. Don't have to start over.

¤ set bersalin

Kali ni ingat nak cuba pakai produk Tanamera. Since I have experience buying a confinement set but didn't use all of the items in the set, this time I'm planning to buy loose items. Pilis, param & bengkung tak yah beli.

¤ lain-lain

Sebab kali ni tak banyak benda yang nak dibeli, memang terasa lebih relax & boleh fokus kepada barang yang tak beli masa time Honey dulu. So kali ni terfikir nak beli almari plak untuk Honey & adik Honey.



Pilih almari kaler putih. Da berangan, when Honey & her lil sis are big enough & ready to move to their own bedroom, maybe we could revamp the wardrobes by painting them.

Ok sekian dulu. Next post, I plan to write about breast pump.

Bicara Penyusuan Susu~Ibu

Semalam pagi2 lagi sudah ke Mum.dreams untuk mendengar talk berkenaan breastfeeding. Hopefully, untuk baby kali ni aku berjaya exclusive breastfeed sampai 6 bulan. Alhamdulillah, pakar yang dijemput memang knowledgeable.



Secara keseluruhan banyak input yang diberikan. But I'd like to highlight only 4 of them:

1. Banyakkan berdoa & bercerita dengan Allah.
2. Be happy, sentiasa tenangkan diri, jangan stressed.
3. Minum 3 liter air kosong/suam sehari.
4. Belajar teknik yang betul & adapt mengikut kesesuaian/keselesaan diri.

Here I was last week...

I was at I.C.T.P, Trieste, Italy, attended a 1-week workshop.

The place is beautiful.




View from my room's window.
Tapi tempat ni berbukit2. Merasalah di hari pertama mendaki bukit. Seriously. The path is very steep ok. Mengah gila dibuatnya.

The special thing about travelling is no matter how much we've travelled, everytime will bring a new experience, it can be either sweet or bitter. Of course this time around, I got to experience taking a long-haul flight during pregnancy. Well, it was a bitter experience. Hahaa. I felt so damn tired due to lack of sleep & comfort. Luckily I felt so during the flight back. I felt really sleepy but couldn't sleep due to the lower back pain that I'd only suffer during pregnancy.

Sampai je rumah, terus tido di atas tilam yang empuk. Lega. I said to myself, that's it, no more long-haul flight during pregnancy. Only woke up to the cutest lil face on Earth, my dear Honey. Honey was not home when I arrived. She celebrated Mother's Day with her famili angkat. Did I feel jealous? Huhuu, like I said I was so damn tired to bother as long as she was in a good hand, all I wanted to do was get some sleep & ease my lower back pain. Futhermore, I have this conflict in me, should we celebrate Mother's Day or not? But that's another story.

Alhamdulillah, semalam monthly checkup, the fetus growth is normal, according to the schedule. Proud with this baby. Despite all my physical activities & lack of rest, the baby stays strong. He/she's sure a tough one.

Mabuk Mengandung

Mengandung kali ni memang lain. Sungguh lain. Alhamdulillah sepanjang mengerjakan umrah, keadaan mengandung ini tidak mengundang apa² masalah. Cuma lebih kerap mengantuk.

Yang lainnya, sebaik pulang daripada umrah, aku terus diserang mabuk. Tak lalu makan & kerap muntah. Selama 2 minggu, memang terasa agak seksa mengandung. Loya sepanjang hari. Masa mengandungkan Honey dulu, ada juga mabuk tapi cuma sebelah petang/malam. Tidak lah sepanjang hari. Cuma bermula minggu lepas, sudah ada selera makan, tapi tetap muntah.

Hasilnya, ketika pemeriksaan pada Isnin yang lalu, berat aku turun sebanyak 2.1kg berbanding 4 minggu yang lalu. Penurunan yang agak banyak menurut Dr Fatimah. Tapi tetap bagi MC sehari aje. Hehee ya lah, sekali sekala apa salahnya bagi lebih.

Alhamdulillah, walaupun berat aku turun, tumbesaran bayi adalah baik. Saiz seperti yang sepatutnya. Lebih istimewa ketika kandungan sudah mencecah usia 3 bulan ini, jelas kelihatan bayi bergerak. Subhanallah.

Dulu ketika mengandungkan Honey, aku cukup berjaga² dengan mengelak mengambil apa² risiko. Percutian ke Bandung yang telah dirancang lebih awal, dibatalkan begitu sahaja. Mengandung kali ini, bukan tidak mahu berjaga² tetapi rasa lebih yakin. Jika sebulan yang lalu ketika usia kandungan 8 minggu aku telah mengerjakan umrah, inshaaAllah beberapa minggu lagi aku akan ke Italy untuk menghadiri kursus selama seminggu. It's gonna be 13 hours long haul flight. Moga² dipermudahkan perjalanan aku nanti & tiada lagi mabuk mengandung.

Hadiah Hari Jadi

Pada 18/2 yang lalu, hari jadi JD. 2 tahun yang lalu, aku buat surprise dengan hadiah yang memang ditunggu oleh kami berdua iaitu Honey was conceived. Setahun yang lalu, majlis aqiqah Honey telah diadakan pada tarikh yang sama.

Tahun ni sekali lagi aku buat surprise. Cuma bezanya, apabila aku ingin menyerahkan paper bag berisi hadiah kepada JD, Honey yang ambil lalu menyeluk tangannya ke dalam paper bag tersebut. Apabila Honey telah berjaya mencapai objek yang diingininya, aku suruh dia berikan kepada JD.

Pastinya JD terkejut, kerana aku juga tak sangka. Alhamdulillah.


InshaaAllah, Honey bakal menjadi kakak.

Peristiwa keguguran yang lalu membuatkan aku risau. Dulu gugur apabila hampir masuk minggu ke-7. Hopefully, everything will be ok this time & I'm gonna have a smooth sailing pregnancy & delivery. Selepas tu boleh 'berehat' & kuruskan badan for good! ;-)

A Missing Piece

I think I need to write about this before the feeling totally disappears as a reminder & lesson to myself.

Err actually I think I already forgot the feeling. Ni lah contoh manusia yang mudah lupa. So tulis apa yang ingat je lah ya.

An excerpt from the article that I googled from internet...

Feelings of grief can often accompany a miscarriage. It is natural to feel loss, sadness, anger, and even guilt, despite the fact that the end result is out of your hands.

Yup I did feel guilty at 1st & kalau direnung2 balik sampai sekarang masih ada rasa bersalah. That's why I need to write about it so that I won't forget & remember it as a lesson. A lesson to always be grateful atas kurniaan Allah, kecik atau besar, ready or not. I took a night to absorb the idea that I was pregnant again. I was scared at 1st, I was afraid that I couldn't handle the responsibilities of being a mom to a toddler & a baby. Aku lupa, that should be the last thing that I should be scared of. Aku lupa I should be scared if anything happens during the pregnancy instead.

After a nite, baru aku tersedar. Baru terfikir that I'll travel, can the pregnancy survive & so on. But my concern only regarding the need to travel to Netherlands. Somehow I thought if anything wants to happen, it'll happen due to that. Allah Maha Besar, perancanganNya is beyond our expectation. Rupa2nya balik dari Taiping on Thursday of the 1st week of Raya the bleeding started. Tak payah nak tunggu aku naik kapal terbang.

Masa mula2 keguguran, I felt like something was taken from me. I felt like I was missing something. There was a desire to replace the missing feeling by getting pregnant again. Hahaa. The feeling only lasted for a week. After a week, I guess I've got over it & finally came to my sense. I should be grateful since I still have Honey. The miscarriage only a small test. الحمدلله at least I had a chance to be pregnant again even only for a few weeks. ;-)

Allah's plan is perfect indeed. There's a reason for everything. There's a reason for the pregnancy & miscarriage ordeal. There's a reason why I had started bleeding even before traveling to Netherlands. Seriously even I thought I was ready, but if I started bleeding after travelling it'd be harder for me to take it. The guiltiness might be greater & the travel didn't worth it. Next time I'll avoid taking such risk.


Me, on the day before the unfortunate event, at the city of Delft waiting for dinner.
Now I guess it's time for us to learn & improve ourselves to be a better parents to Honey & our future kids (انشاء الله). I should take time to let my body ready & completely heal. I should be on a diet. Erghhh. No excuse untuk perut buncit anymore.

Allah mengetahui akan apa yang dikandung oleh tiap-tiap ibu, dan mengetahui apa yang kurang dari yang dikandung dalam rahim itu atau yang lebih. Dan tiap-tiap sesuatu adalah ditetapkan di sisiNya dengan kadar yang tertentu.
(Surah ar-Rad: 8)

A Year Ago

Yes, exactly a year ago I did the test... :-D

I had an instinct that I was pregnant a few days before but somehow kinda busy to buy the test kit. I did plan to surprise JD on his birthday with the good news but I had symposium on the day & as I said earlier I didnt have time to buy the test kit. However when I got home on Friday which was JD's birthday, it struck me that The Mall was just outside P.W.T.C where the symposium took place. I could just take a few minutes to go there & buy the test kit. Haih... camna lah boleh tak teringat.

I already made plan with Mas to watch movie at Alamanda on Sunday, 2 days after JD's birthday. Before watching the movie, I finally bought the test kit. I went home nearly 6pm. At 1st I thought it'd be better to wait until tomorrow since the 1st urine in the morning works the best for the test, rite... but then I thought if the result is +ve, I might have to wait until the evening to tell JD since we'd be busy preparing to go to work in the morning. Since there were 2 kits in the package, I guessed it was no harm to do the test on the evening & if the result was dissatisfying I could redo the test the next morning. Punya lah pesimis.

So when the clear +ve sign appeared I was kinda speechless. Fine the result was expected but I didnt expect to see a very clear vertical line that formed a perfect +ve sign just within a few seconds.

I put the kit in the box & gave it to JD as his birthday present. He shaked the box & thought there was a pen inside it. He opened the box, hold the kit & asked me what ist.
"Tengok lah betul2...", I replied.
"Awak pregnant?"
"YES!"

Alhamdulillah, now we have Honey :-).

Due Date!

25/10/2011... Today is my expected due date to deliver Honey. Alhamdulillah, Honey had been delivered safely 2 weeks earlier, which was exactly at week 38 of the pregnancy.

Suddenly I wonder, if I insist on waiting & hoping for normal delivery, when actually would I met Honey? But I guess, this is it, this is the fate & I couldnt be more grateful :-).

Actually I wanna write about my experience on delivering Honey. Mesti ramai yg nak tau kn (tetiba feeling mcm ramai reader) how I came up with the decision to go thru c-sect at last minute, had discussion about it with my OB at 10am, got my OB approval, just booked any available bed, went back home to take baby & my stuff, surrendered (being warded) at ~1pm, being prepared for operation at ~2:30pm, pushed to OT at ~3pm & finally Honey was born at 4:09pm 11/10/2011.

Eh somehow I hv summarized almost the whole story. On how I came up with the final decision, it was actually JD's. I had checkup on Thursday, the week before. Coincidentally, my appointment was on the evening & JD was able to accompany me. After listening to Dr.Hamidah's explanation & rational why we had been given the option, JD thought it made sense. I felt the same way too when I 1st listened to the explanation. So we came up with the final decision & I called DH on Friday to tell her that we opt for c-sect where she asked me to meet her on Tuesday, 11/10/11 for further dicussion. The rest is as summarized above ;-).

In The Womb

Baby's 1st pic ever. At week 8...

Subhanallah. It was almost unbelievable to see that little fetus was actually alive. Still remember the feeling when the doc showed me the heart. I could see the heartbeat. Amazing.

20 weeks later...

Love this pic so much especially the lower lip. Terjuih gitu. The unborn baby was asleep during the 3D pic was taken. Geram tengok pipi dia yang tembam.

36 weeks...

One more week left before my pregnancy will be full-term & 4 weeks until my due date. Mentally, I think I'm ready to give birth at any time soon, but the fact is I havent ready with the preparation. Ni kes mental tak seiring dgn action la ni. Still there are a few necessary items to buy, the hospital bag needs to be packed & baby clothes are yet to be washed. The hall at the 1st floor is like tongkang pecah & JD is occupied with his wall-painting project (to welcome the baby. Macam lah baby faham :P). So far, the non-feature walls for all the 3 bedrooms were done. No matter how busy I am *tangan di dada, mata ke atas*, note to myself... I need to wash the baby clothes, pack the hospital bag & kemas mana yang boleh. The sooner the better.

Regarding the previous post, I think I've made the decision. After reading others experiences, I know that I want to deliver normally. In fact actually, I've been wanting to deliver naturally. No induce, no epidural. Yup, I'm that ambitious. Actually before buying this GTab, I had been spending time reading a book titled "Ina~May's Guide to Natural~Childbirth" almost everyday before going to sleep. Somehow, the book does inspire me. Natural birth doesnt sound so scary no matter how painful the process is. It makes me think kalau mat saleh ni boleh, aku pun boleh. Lagipun, macam tu lah mak2 kita bersalin dulu. How I wish I got the opportunity to have that experience. However of course, bersalin ni pun bergantung pada rezeki. Redha je lah. Most importantly the baby is delivered safely. InsyaAllah. The final decision will be made next week when I have another checkup. If everything is normal, no complication whatsoever, then I'll choose to wait instead of going for elective c-sect.

Ok, here's the update on my condition rite now. My tummy becomes bigger! Hehee.. I know it's normal. But somehow I think the growth is quite sudden. Tetiba dah tak cukup baju nak gi ofis. Kalau gi ofis pakai uniform kan senang. Before, I still can wear baju kurung. Now, not anymore. So, instead of sighing everytime I open my wardrobe, yesterday, finally I bought more maternity blouses & pants. Hopefully sempat pakai beberapa kali sebelum bersalin. Sebelum ni cuma pernah beli sehelai maternity blouse & maternity jeans aje.

So far, still no backache. Sakit pinggul kadang2, especially at nite. Sama ke sakit pinggul & sakit belakang?? Tiada masalah untuk tidur malam. Just that sometimes I do feel less comfortable. Baby masih bergerak aktif but less kicking. Guess what.. finally at week 35 I got stretch marks & felt a bit itchy. I thought I'd be one of the lucky mommies-to-be who dont have to deal with stretch marks during pregnancy. However, I still consider myself lucky cos I'd categorized my stretch marks as the mild one (*perasan*), hardly can be seen & I dont feel itchy anymore. I started having swelling feet at week 33, but it's not so obvious that even the nurse didnt notice it during my 34-weeks checkup. Besides, I still can wear my old flat pumps. Of course they're a bit tight.

Wee.. dah panjang post ni.


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Dalam Dilema...

I'm given a choice by my obstetrician whether to go for c-sect (LSCS) at 38 weeks of pregnancy or normal delivery since this is our 1st baby after years of marriage. As the doc said, if I go for c-sect, I dont have to wait anxiously especially if the pregnancy is overdue.

So far everything is ok with my pregnancy. Me & the unborn baby are fine. So, I can opt for normal delivery but we can never be sure as anything could happen as the time comes. Basically there are pros & cons for each option.

At 1st, I'm kinda 75% tend to opt for c-sect. My rational is even though I prefer a normal delivery, but I think for this 1st baby, maybe my preference is not that important. The most important thing is the baby is delivered safely when the baby is matured enough at 38 weeks.

However after reading the c-sect experiences by other mommies, terus rasa tak jadi nak go for it. Scary ok. The procedure might be painless at the moment of delivery but I doubt I can stand the pain afterwards. From what I've read, nak batuk & bersin pun sakit. Ada yg take a year to heal. Oh no.

Pendapat D, I should opt for normal delivery 1st & choose for elective c-sect on the due date instead of week 38. I'm tempted to go for elective c-sect on 38 weeks of pregnancy bcos I'd like to deliver the baby on 10/10/11 or 11/10/11. Alang2 elective c-sect kan, pilihlah tarikh yg cantik. Lagipun, if I could wait until my due date for a normal delivery, I think I dont mind to wait for another maximum ~10 days.

So now, I'm kinda 85% sure to wait patiently for the baby to be born naturally. I guess as 1st time parents to be, we're not that anxious. The balance 15% comes from my concern what if I'm actually destined to go for c-sect. If not elective, I might end up going for emergency c-sect. Membaca pengalaman orang yg diseluk beberapa kali, but akhirnya kene emergency c-sect juga adalah menakutkan. Baik pilih c-sect drp awal. Hahaa.. I know that I think & read too much. Blame the GTab, makes browsing & reading so convenient. Oopss.. iklan jap.

Sigh... serba salah pula bila diberi pilihan. I have to inform the doc about my decision during my next checkup which is 2 weeks from now.

Well, I pray to God for the best & hopefully I'll make the correct decision. InsyaAllah. Ameen.

10 Weeks Left...

Alhamdulillah.. so far I'm doing fine. But I know that many challenges yet to come. I couldnt imagine myself carrying 2.5kg++ fetus in my tummy. Even now sometimes I feel like I need extra energy to move myself. I might be exaggrating a bit since every evening after office hour I still manage to hunt meals for iftar. But I guess it's less tiring than cooking. Most importantly, for now I havent missed a single day of fasting & with my healthy condition rite now, I dont find any excuse to break fast.

At 30 weeks, I guess my belly is not that big. I still can wear some of my baju kurung. The only maternity jeans that I had bought still doesnt fit me well at the belly part. Guess what, no strecth mark or itchiness whatsoever. So my tummy still looking good ;-) except for the area around the belly button is kinda dry. Even my belly button hasnt pop up yet. Yeah, 10 weeks still is a long way to go where the baby will grow twice... so I just have to wait & see.

Hmm... what else? I still can sleep well at nite. No backache. It just that I snore (loudly according to D), but that's D's problem :-P. I dont really monitor my weight. Ok, I just checked my weight. Seems like I lose some weights during this fasting month. So, that makes me gain not more than 10kg during this pregnancy so far. That sounds good. Just hope the baby is doing fine too. The last time I did checkup, which was during the 1st week of Ramadan, the baby's weight was ideal... the point was exactly at the center of the line chart.

Talking about the baby, the baby is kicking rite now. Oh yeah, I think one of the significant development of the baby is now I can feel it when the baby hiccups. I'd say that my baby has a hiccup almost everyday. But yesterday, I noticed the baby had a hiccup twice. From what I read, it's normal for babies to have hiccups in the womb in order to mature their lungs. So, no worries.

Ok, I guess that's all for now.

Mengidam

About more than a month ago , a colleague of mine asked me do I crave anything?

My answer was... yes, I do... I crave for...
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SAMSUNG GALAXY TAB!

Seriously. For a few weeks I just couldn't get it out of my head. I googled & watched YouTube about it. Bak kata JD, memang nak kene beli ni.

Actually start berkenan dengan GTab ni during I was about 9 weeks pregnant sebab tengok drama bersiri di TV3. Masa tu dok umah Mak seminggu sebab JD out-station. Since Mak layan drama tu, terpaksa lah layan sama. Heroin dalam drama tu pakai GTab. Nampak smart plak. Tapi belum ada keinginan melampau untuk membeli lagi.

Then somehow I see more people using it & I happened to read more bloggers review about it. Tetiba rasa nak sangat. Finally, about a month ago, the GTab is mine =D.

At 1st I was a bit afraid that the 7" screen is still small for my usage which is to surf internet & read while lying down. Yup, motif utama nak main internet sambil baring (melepek). Fortunately, so far I'm satisfied. The size is just nice that I can still typing using both of my thumbs, hence the frequent update lately ;-) (now, I use BlogIt instead of Blogger~droid) & the screen is big enough that I can still browse websites comfortably even they aren't in mobile version.

Ok enough about my favorite new gadget. Am thinking, besides the GTab :-P, what else do I crave for..? Rasanya macam takde kot. Setakat teringin gitu2 je. Tak dapat pun takpe. Contohnya durian. Aku mmg teringin durian, tapi takde lah sampai tahap nak membeli. Tapi kalau ada depan mata, ngap aje la.

Beberapa hari ni aku teringin cempedak goreng lak, lagi2 bila tengok orang jual buah cempedak kat tepi jalan. Hari tu ada beli cempedak goreng kat param Presint~2, kebetulan nampak ada orang jual. Walaupun habis dimakan sorang2, tapi still rasa kalau goreng sendiri atau lebih tepat kalau Mak goreng lagi sedap. Lalu, belilah buah cempedak di tepi jalan, minta tolong Mak gorengkan. Isk... cite pasal makan ni buat perut lapar je.

Alhamdulillah, sudah 7 hari kita (aku) berpuasa, insyaAllah.

Knock Knock

Entering the 3rd trimester...

2nd day of Ramadan.

Baby stuff, so far...

At last we start buying baby stuff. I guess I'm not blur anymore. With the guide from a newborn checklist that I had downloaded from My.Permata.Hati website, I have a brief idea on the necessary stuff. I also spent some times surfing shopping webs & visiting baby stores in order to know the price range. These are the stuff that we purchased at Little.Whiz... Blanket, swaddle, towel & stuff like that.

Guess what, the unborn baby already got a present... A pair of cute tiny socks from practical students.

This morning, we went to Parenthood~Expo at Midvalley. This is the 2nd time we went to this kind of expo, so we didn't actually expect that we'd buy something. Turn out, yup I'm not as clueless as the 1st time. So, this is the result... I think we got a good deal for all these stuff. I'd like to share the details in my next post.

So, that's it so far. Actually, I think quite a lot of stuff that we haven't bought yet like baby gear, bedding set, baby care & grooming, diapering etc. Will continue shopping for baby after Eid. Or... would anyone like to give early presents for our baby? ;-) hiksss.

Selamat menyambut Ramadhan. Semoga segala amalan kita diberkatiNya. Semoga diberi kekuatan & kesabaran untuk berpuasa penuh tahun ini. Amin.