2016 Summary

Ok jom update blog sepantas kilat. Ni kira rumusan sepanjang 2016...

Hani & Iman:

• Iman stopped breastfeeding on January. 
• Hani moved to a new preschool & enrolled for full day on March.
• Iman transferred to the same preschool starting on June. 
• Hani & Iman dah tak minum susu botol lagi.
• Hani dah totally pampers free.
• They performed their first concert on Nov.
• Iman became more active, cheeky & braver as the year goes by. 

My life generally:

• Bought treadmill on Feb. Kononnya nak have an active & healthy life style.
• Held Raya open house. Just invite families, relatives, close friends & neighbours though. 
• Finally decided to buy an iPhone on Sept. Miss Android. Gave my old phone to Mak. 
• Went to Johor on early Nov after 10 years tak pergi kot. Brought the kids to Hello Kitty Town & Friends.
• First Iskandar family day on Nov at Gold Coast Morib.
• On December, Mak Ayah pegi umrah. Busy with the guests coming to the house.
• Gi PD 3 kali... Absolutely my favorite holiday destination.
• Finally last week bought cordless vacuum cleaner. Dah bertahun niat nak beli.
• Hani accidentally broke my work glasses. 
• Health-wise, much better than last year. 

Work: 

• Busy year with so many projects. I had like 8 on-going projects.
• Contract renewal for FAS maintenance. Siap kene redo & buat tawaran semula.
• Won silver medal on innovation competition at the work place on Oct.
• Went to Cherating for the 1st time for a conference at end of Nov.
• Yesterday, received an email for an exercise for promotion.

Basically just a biasa² year. No significant ups & downs. Alhamdulillah 😊. Biasa² yang indah 😍🎉🎆.

©2016 Sent from my iPhone 6S+ 

Kepulangan

Alhamdulillah, pada 20/12 Mak Ayah selamat pulang ke Malaysia. Terserlah kegembiraan & kepuasan di wajah mereka.

Seronok sekali mereka bercerita tentang pengalaman di sana. Kami anak beranak sama² melihat gambar² yang sempat dirakam oleh Ayah ketika di sana. Ada juga Ayah selfie rupanya 😄.

Banyak juga barang yang mereka bawa balik. Menurut Ayah dia shopping seorang diri kerana sepanjang di sana Emak on off demam. Mungkin kerana tak tahan cuaca sejuk. Macam² yang ayah beli. Makanan berupa kurma, kekacang & coklat, jubah etc untuk diagih²kan kepada saudara-mara.

Walau bagaimanapun, kerusi roda Mak tidak muncul² di KLIA. Tak tau lah ke mana perginya. Takpe lah yang penting dah selesai semuanya. Mak Ayah pun dah pulang ke rumah sendiri di Taiping.

Memang tak sangka rezeki Mak Ayah menunaikan umrah tahun ni. Semua berlaku agak pantas. Melihat kegembiraan mereka memang berbaloi lah penajaan JD. InshaaAllah.

Bila lah pula peluang aku ke sana lagi.

©2016 Posted from my Galaxy Note 8.0

Phewww...

Pada hari Selasa 6/12, Mak Ayah sampai ke rumah, diambil oleh JD dari Taiping. Jadi tentu lah rumah kami jadi tumpuan untuk saudara mara datang melawat. Orang datang, kene lah jamu sesuatu kan.

Seperti biasa Mak memang siap memasak dulu di Taiping. Dibawanya nasi himpit, rendang ayam & puding walaupun aku telah berpesan supaya tidak menyediakan apa². 

Malam itu, hanya adik beradik datang melawat. Malah birasku membawa nasi arab jadi aku tidak menyediakan apa². Cukup lah tu ditambah dengan nasi himpit & rendang ayam Mak. Tetapi masih sibuk menghidang, menyediakan air & membasuh.

Hari Rabu, hari yang benar² sibuk. Paginya aku perlu ke ofis menyelesaikan beberapa kerja tertunggak. Apa taknya selama 2 minggu sebelumnya aku berkursus, Isnin pula tiada elektrik & Selasa aku cuti. 10 pagi keluar ofis, singgah di rumah Mak & ke pasar raya untuk membeli beberapa bahan nasi arab untuk juadah malam nanti. 

Sampai di rumah, bermula lah tugas sepenuh masa di dapur. Terus menyinsing lengan baju untuk masak juadah tengahari 💪🏻🍛. Menu tengahari itu siakap bakar, sambal udang, sup tulang & sayur pak choi goreng bersama sos tiram. Thanks to Noxxa pressure cooker & magic pan, sup tulang & siakap bakar boleh dimasak serentak tanpa perlu keluar hikmat tangan sotong 😬. Memasak sambil² meluangkan sedikit masa untuk melayan tetamu yang datang tengahari itu. 

Selesai masak juadah tengahari, terus menyediakan & memerap kambing pula untuk dimasak malam nanti. Actually memasak tu ok lagi. Yang buat penatnya ialah mengemas & membasuh pinggan mangkuk yang banyak 😰. Penuh sinki & macam tak habis² pula 😭. Kira full-time di dapur. Tapi JD & Mak ada juga tolong membasuh & mengemas 😪. 

Petangnya bermula pula persiapan untuk juadah malam nanti. Dijangka lebih ramai yang akan datang. So aku menyediakan spaghetti bolognaise  & nasi arab lauk kambing. Thanks again to pressure cooker Noxxa. Kerana mood malas dah mula menjelma, aku cuba melembutkan spaghetti menggunakan Noxxa. Alhamdulillah menjadi. Hanya 6 minit spaghetti dah al-dante. Kambing juga aku campakkan sahaja ke dalam Noxxa. Kali ini aku masak selama 30 minit supaya kambing benar2 lembut & lebih terasa perapannnya.

Yang penting Mak kagum melihat menantunya ni mampu memasak beraneka juadah seorang diri hampir sepanjang hari untuk ramai tetamu yang datang 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻. Hahaaa 😅 menantu yang perasan. Hehee, sekali sekala boleh lah. Kalau hari² pengsan 😵. Apa pun kedatangan tetamu itu membawa rezeki kan 😌.

©2016 Sent from my iPhone 6S+

Rindu

Ketika ini Mak & Ayah di Haramain untuk mengerjakan umrah. Melihat gambar² mereka di sana, ya Allah rindunya ingin ke sana lagi. 

Actually, I did consider of going with them. Boleh bermahramkan Ayah. Tetapi memikirkan masa & keadaan ekonomi yang kurang sesuai, I had to pass. As for JD pula, since he had spent more than RM15k to sponsor them, to spend another RM7k++ sounds kinda much. Ayah kata takpe, dia boleh jaga Mak. Malah di Mekah nanti ada Cik Din boleh tolong tengok²kan.

Tapi kita hanya merancang, Allah lah yang sebaik² perancang. Rabu, sehari sebelum Mak Ayah bertolak, Cik Din telah diarahkan oleh majikannya untuk pulang ke Malaysia esok (Ahad). Jadi, Mak & Ayah takkan berkesempatan pun untuk bertemu Cik Din di Mekah kerana pada hari Khamis mereka akan bertolak ke Madinah dahulu & hanya akan tiba di Mekah hari Isnin.

Allah, hanya kepada Kau lah tempat kami bergantung.

👋🏻 Mak & Ayah 😢. 

Alhamdulillah, melihatkan gambar² yang kerap dikongsi oleh mutawif rombongan umrah Mak & Ayah, kelihatan mereka baik² sahaja. Kami anak² memang risaukan mereka. Maklum lah pasangan warga emas pergi berdua ke luar negara untuk kali pertama. Dengan Emak berkerusi roda. Ayah pula baru guna smartphone. Tak pandai nak utilize lagi. Semuanya terhad. Tetapi semangat mereka untuk pergi yang kuat. Sesungguhnya segala rezeki, kudrat & pertolongan dengan izin Allah jua.

Ya Allah, jagakan mereka untukku. Semoga ada rezeki untukku menjadi tetamu rumah-Mu lagi. Amin.

©2016 Sent from my iPhone 6S+ 

Episode

Ohh I guess I need to share my latest crush.

It's a game called Episode. I encountered it during my cuci mata session at instagram. Just installed it then & tried it out.

So lazy to describe the game. Ok briefly, it's actually a game where there are lots of stories. So it's just like reading a novel, a laid-back one where you can watch the characters & make a decision for them but with limitation. Right now, I only got 4 passes for every 4 hours means I can only read 4 episodes every 4 hours. Of course, if I want more or can't wait for 4 hours, I can buy the pass which I won't. I think that's what make it more interesting. No matter how hooked I am, I just have to stop after reading 4 episodes. There's a limitation call gem too when you have to choose, but just ignore it. Just pick anything free.

I'm a geek & a nerd at heart 🤓. So being a nerd I am, I love reading. But since being a mother, I can hardly find the time. Sometimes I just don't want to start reading cos I'll be hooked & it'll consume time. With 2 kids to look after, meal to cook, house chores... buried myself in a story book is not a good choice 😌.

Now I find this game, I feel like my inner desired has been fullfilled 😁. It's good to actually read again without feeling guilty. So far, I have finished reading 3 stories & 2 are in progress. My current reading titled 'Party Girl' is hilarious. Fine, I picked it under comedy genre, but I don't expect it to be actually funny. Can't wait to gain the passes to continue reading. But not desperate enough to purchase the pass of course 😊.

©2016 Sent from my iPhone 6S+ 

Almost end of The Month

Alhamdulillah October is almost over. Not that I'm looking forward for the coming November though.

As I said in the previous post, October is a crazy month, be it personally & work wise. Work-wise, alhamdulillah, the innovation day has over & tomorrow, I need to send my SKT. Talking about the innovation day, we didn't win gold medal. Just managed to win silver, alhamdulillah. The thing is we were only 1 mark behind to win the gold medal 😪. Blame it on the system hardware failed to work during judging session 😖. Everything happens with Allah's will. InshaaAllah, just like one of my project members said, there'll be bigger rezqi for us 😊.

Actually I want to talk about personal stuff that contributes to this month's craziness not work related stuff. I guess I'll continue in the next post. 

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Eh i wrote the above last nite, but forgot to publish it.

©2016 Sent from my iPhone 6S+ 

Our Iman

Happy Birthday my Dearest! 😘❤️❣️

Today is Iman's birthday! To be honest I almost forgot. Just remember it when I check the calendar. Not that she's less special. It just that, with the party & celebration were over, & I don't plan to arrange another, seems like nothing is ongoing in my personal calendar, at least on this crazy month.

I think I have written about this before. Iman's like a bonus in our life. Honey completes ours, that we couldn't ask for more. A bonus is certainly welcome & like a double happiness. 

At age of 3, Iman makes all of us including Honey laugh with her cheeky but innocent acts. She's not as cheeky & playful as Honey at this age. She's actually quite reserved around stranger. So orang memang nampak dia as budak baik. But she's a good lil kid anyway. Tak demand & tak banyak songeh. Senang nak jaga. Except for her firmness when she already decided something. Hard to reasoning with. Tapi Mama senang je. Buat tak tau bila dia start mengamuk sebab tau pujuk pun takkan berkesan. Biasanya tak lama. Nanti dia akan datang sendiri & cakap, "Nak Mama...". At least it works for me since I guess I'm her most favorite person.

Iman hanya menyusu botol bila di tadika. Jadi senang sikit keje Mama. But still most of the time Iman only wants to sleep next to me. Bukan setakat sebelah... Kalau tido tu mesti mengereng mengadap dia atau pun terlentang je. Tak boleh membelakangkan langsung. Mesti kene tarik supaya mengadap dia balik. Pastu suka jadikan perut Mama as her pillow. So it just hard for me to sleep if she's still hasn't sleep.

Iman still cakap pelat. But she loves singing. Bahasa dia lah. Kadang² dengan penuh perasaan. It's funny to watch. Nampak macam lemah lembut budaknya. Tapi actually boleh tahan gangster especially with Honey. Nasib baik Honey kakak yang baik, so sabar je lah tengok si adik jeles tak bertempat. Kalau Mama sikat rambut Honey dulu pun Iman tak puas hati. Ditolaknya Honey, pastu menyelit between me & Honey.

Iman absolutely kesayangan semua. As anak 'bongsu', I guess she can remains as a baby as long as she wants. Honey pun kadang² still kata Iman baby. & I know, I'll miss her as a baby as she becomes a big girl.

©2016 Sent from my iPhone 6S+ 

 

Fierce

Phew lega. It was a fierce competition. I'd say far more different than the last time I entered this competition, which was maybe 3 years ago. Everybody seems confident, every project seems has potential to win gold medal.

Alhamdulillah, I think I have presented quite well. I was not nervous, I managed to delivered as I planned... at the beginning 😬. But then, I think after that, it was not so bad, but not so good either. I wasn't really prepared with all the answers to the judges' questions. I managed to answer, but if I have prepared, I might do better. Might. The worst thing was our system didn't work as we desired 😖😣 even though we have tested it beforehand. Anyway, it's all happen with Allah's will. I'm in a way still kinda positive. I believe in Allah's plan 😊.

I hope after the judging session, I'd feel less tiring. But I guess not. Still I feel so exhausted 😵. I long to sleep earlier but with so many house chores to do, I can't. Rite now, still waiting for the laundry to be finished washing. Then I need to hang all the clothes 😞. Tuesday is a laundry day indeed, nothing I can do about it or else the kids don't have a clean uniform to school. So, maybe l can sleep earlier tomorrow. Or maybe I should just take an emergency leave tomorrow 🤓 & spend the day sleeping 😴💤. 

Tragedi Oktober

It's a very busy month for me. My calendar is full with meetings, courses, due dates & events. Fortunately, the course that has been scheduled on the last week of the month is postponed to December. Fuhh. Lega.

Next week, there'll be Innovation Day at work & I'm the project leader. Got to work harder to ensure the success 💪🏻. Seriously, I'm kinda afraid if I might dissappoint my project members if we lose even though they don't put the pressure on me. But still, as the project leader, I feel responsibled. InshaaAllah. The gold medal will be ours 🏆.

Since, I'll be free on the last week of the month due to the postponed course, if possible I'd like to take a long holiday. I guess cos I'm so tired rite now, but can't even take a day off, I feel that way. Well we'll see. Most importantly, hope I can survive next week. 😌😁

Honey turns 5

Dah besar anak Mama, Honey. Dah 5 tahun! ✋🏻

It's a busy month for me or else I might take a leave just to spend with Honey. Hence, I target next year since it'll be the last year before Honey entering a primary school, I wanna spend a day with her on her birthday. InshaaAllah.

Alhamdulillah Honey membesar dengan sihat. Petah bercakap. I can actually have a real conversation with her.

Honey juga kakak yang baik kepada Iman. Walaupun di rumah kerap juga bergaduh, but I know she actually cares about Iman & Iman loves her too. At school, as the teacher said, she really protects Iman. I know I can count on you to take care of young lil sis.

Honey masih menyusu dalam botol lagi. Hehee, tapi dah kurang la. Itu pun, we're the one who put the restriction. Bila nak tido je minum susu. Tapi kadang2 terlebih juga.

Makan ikut mood. Kadang2 kuat makan, kadang2 kurang. She's a picky eater. Stressed gak Mama nak masak.

Huhuu sorry Honey, Mama feels sleepy already 😵. To make this short, I just wanna say, you may have flaws, but it's ok... I'll still love you ❤. You're just 5 years old. There's a long way to go. Just a be a kid. I'm really grateful to have you as my daughter 😘. TQ for a wonderful 5 years! Alhamdulillah.

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Actually I wrote the above 👆🏻, yesterday, on Honey's birthday but I couldn't post it using the app. Again, iPhone dissappoints me 😒.

Keyboard again

Another keyboard testing. Hahaa. Still haven't found my perfect iPhone keyboard. I guess I've been really spoilt with SwiftKey on Android. But as I mentioned in my previous post SwiftKey for iPhone is suck. The thing is there are 3 keyboards that almost meet my requirements. Almost, that's it. If only I can combine these 3 keyboards. But this one I think almost there. Just that there's a bug. Already emailed the developer about it. Or maybe I should retry the stock keyboard. Nahh... 😒

©2016 Posted from my iPhone 6S+

Anak

Honey & Iman, my ❤

Ok let's talk about anak² pula. Alhamdulillah, Honey & Iman dah makin besar. Tak lama lagi Honey will turn 5 while Iman will be 3. Makin mudah dijaga. Pandai main berdua, tak kacau Mama & Papa. Sekali sekala je lah. Most of the time still sikit² Mama 😏. Mama nak itu lah, nak ini lah. Hehee budak² biasa lah kan 😅.

Apa pun now I can have a good nite sleep. Honey dah tak bangun mintak susu malam². Iman pula sejak putus susu, memang da takde lah nak nenen malam. Cuma sekali sekala bangun minta air kosong. Takde hal. Memang dah stand by botol air kat tepi katil. Nak tido siang pun dah takde problem sangat. Diorang tau Mama tido, pandai lah buat hal sendiri macam tengok TV ke, mewarna atau main berdua. Janji perut dah kenyang 😊.

I think the best think about being a mom is seeing our kids grow up healthily... & that reason only is enough to make us feeling blessed, grateful & happy 😁. Nothing else matters. 👭💞 

Salam awal Muharam 1438H. Let's be a better person by always be kind, sincere & positive towards other people - family, relatives, friends, colleagues, acquaintances & even strangers. That will reflect on how happy & grateful we are as a person. That will also reflect how humble we are as a servant to Allah the Almighty.

©2016 Posted from my iPhone 6S+

 

Keyboard

I wanna write something, tapi tak tau nak tulis apa. Actually nak test keyboard baru je. Just hard to find a perfect keyboard on iPhone due to the iOS limitation itself. Perfect keyboard for me maknanya boleh move the cursor easily, symbols & numbers just one click away & good predictions. Not much isn't it? I can get all this using SwiftKey app on Android but SwiftKey on iOS is kinda suck. So I keep searching for keyboards in App Store & trying them out. I guess I just have to settle with the best of what Apple got to offer. Ok will write more later. Got to work 😬.

©2016 Posted from my iPhone 6S+

(Hahaaa, still gigih menaip signature 👆🏻 sendiri)

I hate iPhone

Ok, maybe that's too harsh... Maybe I just don't like it. After ~5 days using it, I do kinda feel that way even though I really hope otherwise. 

Yeah, finally last Sunday, on Hari Arafah 1437H, I bought an iPhone! I bought it at Machines, IOI Mall Putrajaya. I fasted that day, but didn't feel hungry cos kenyang main henfon baru 😜.

My iPhone...

Why? Just like old folks say, "Curiosity kills the cat". I guess it doesn't kill me, but it surely makes me stressed. Yes, I'm curious. I want to try it. Just like I told JD, it won't be so bad isn't it?? If I don't buy it now, I don't know when I will since I'm not interested with iPhone 7. Furthermore, I'm a geek at heart. I love gadget. So naturally I'd like to have an experience with iPhone myself especially when its users keep telling people that iPhone is the best 😏. Tak pakai, tak tau. Ok let me use it then. I'm neither Android nor Apple fangirl. So I won't simply say Android is better without trying iPhone 1st. & I won't simply say iPhone is the best just because it's Apple.

2 days after, Soya.Cincau wrote this... 

The best thing about the iPhone 7 launch isn’t the iPhone 7

Exactly, right on point!

Now back to why I don't like this so called 'exclusive-premium' smart phone. iPhone got so many limitations! For Apple fans, they call it simplicity. Yeah right 🙄. Simplicity should be by your own choice not because you're stuck. But that was expected. iPhone can't be customized etc. I know that fact. The thing is, I always read that iPhone, unlike Android, offers many & polished apps. I believe that. I'm satisfied with Android apps. I thought iPhone would have better apps. But I was so wrong. Even simple basic apps like keyboard, notes & alarm clock are worse. I'm not satisfied with the built-in apps. Fine the store should offers the better one. I don't mind to pay. I have installed & uninstalled various apps just to find the right one that suits my usage, still couldn't find the one that at least if not better, on par with what are offered in Play store. Seriously. What apps that you Apple fans are talking about? 🤔😤

Maybe they are talking about games apps. If that's true, no wonder people say iPhone is for budak² baru nak up (BBNU). I don't play games. My smart phone is like my mobile organizer. I jot down everything in my phone, even update my blog using it, just like now, so I need a friendly keyboard. I utilize the calendar to set my personal & work appointments/activities. I want my alarm clock to be reliable to wake me up in the morning not depends on the ringer volume. Don't tell me I don't know how to use it. I'm a tech-savvy ok. Only 5 days experience maybe beats months of other iPhone users, which I think many of them only use it to make calls & get connected to social medias... & play games. Don't suggest me to jailbreak or rooting, I like my gadget as it is.

I guess enough for now. I can go on ranting about the bad sides of iPhone. My friends once told me, once I used an iPhone, I'd like it. The other friends said once you used iPhone, you won't change to other brands. Yeah, right. Some people think it's 'cooler' using iPhone. In summary, macam lah best sangat pakai iPhone ni 😒. To be honest Apple's fanbois/fangirls are annoying, just simply obsess with the brand. Janji iPhone. Skrin kecik, 16GB storage pun takpe 😛. I know it's not the best smart phone even before I bought it. But I thought it'd be on par with Android flagship  - lacks here & there but still wins in some aspects. But right now I have to say iPhone dah tertinggal beberapa tiang di belakang when even the apps lack of features.

Tengok lah.. Maybe I'll update again my experience using iPhone after a month. Still 5 days is too early to make a final verdict, I know 😌. Who knows I might change my mind later. But sshhh don't tell JD about this. He'd say, "I told you so...". Err really hope I'll change my mind.

 © Sent from my iPhone 6S+ (had to type myself, no auto-generate signature 😕. Even no scheduled post 😾)

Selamat Hari Raya Haji 1437H

Lamanya tak update blog, for someone yang berazam untuk frequently update blog.

2 hari lagi kita akan menyambut Hari Raya Qurban. Esok hari Arafah.

Semalam, ketika perjalanan pulang ke rumah dari ofis, dengar Ikim, diceritakan perihal korban. Qurban ialah penghampiran... Maknanya lebih mendekatkan diri dengan Allah. Ia adalah ibadah bukan adat. Tapi zaman sekarang, sebab dah terbiasa kot macam lupa ianya adalah ibadah untuk mendekatkan diri dengan Allah & ibadah korban dicemari unsur² negatif seperti berebut bahagian. Berkorbanlah ikhlas kerana Allah. Yang tidak berkorban tetapi membantu pun ada ganjarannya kalau ikhlas kerana Allah bukan semata² nak dapat daging percuma.

Salah satu trip yang aku teringin nak join ialah trip korban di luar negara seperti di Kemboja atau Vietnam. Suka baca kisah mereka yang ikut trip korban ni. How Muslim di sana looking forward for it bukan semata² sebab daging percuma, malah mereka memang jarang makan daging. Sanggup menyeberang sungai & melalui perjalanan jauh untuk mengambil daging.  Sesuatu yang baru melihat ibadah korban di negara orang di mana mungkin tak semeriah Malaysia tetapi cukup menginsafkan. InshaaAllah one day, bila anak² dah besar.

Teringin juga menjalankan ibadah korban di kampung sendiri. Buat masa ini belum diizinkan kerana tiada plan untuk pulang ke kampung. Kekangan cuti yang singkat & jalan jem. Hehee lame excuse but so true... 😅. InshaaAllah...

Pastinya juga waktu ini akan terfikir bila lah giliran untuk menunaikan ibadah haji. Moga2 bila waktunya tiba akan dipermudahkan urusan dengan kesihatan yang baik.

©2016 Posted from my Xperia Z

Persiapan Syawal 1437H

Seperti yang diduga, Sabtu lalu badan terasa penat kerana nak datang period. Elok esoknya, Ahad seawal 7 pagi memang red flag pun. Kerana penat hari Sabtu tu, plan nak masak sup tulang selepas berbuka, terpaksa dibatalkan. Since Ahad tu memang dah tak boleh puasa, jadi masak lah sup tulang. Maknanya tahun ni 9 hari kene ganti puasa. Paling banyak dalam sejarah ni.

Malam ini malam 30 Ramadhan. Malam terakhir Ramadhan tahun ini. Rasa sayu pulak hati.

Hari ini aku masak agak banyak lauk untuk berbuka. Biasanya akan ada 3 jenis lauk je. Tapi hari ini ada 4. JD pun tegur. Masak lebih hari ni sebab ini lah kali terakhir aku masak untuk berbuka puasa Ramadhan tahun ni. Esok akan berbuka di rumah Mak.

Persiapan raya tahun ini boleh dikatakan kurang berbanding tahun lepas. Seperti biasa sejak ada anak dara 2 org ni, aku akan menempah baju dengan Mak Long. 3 pasang sorang. Aku pun 3 pasang juga. Target tahun ni nak beli ready made online sepasang je sebab baju raya tahun lepas pun ada yang tak pakai lagi. Tapi end up 2 pasang. Ok lah tu, tak lari sangat. Yang sepasang lagi tu pun murah je kalau nak dibandingkan dengan harga baju sekarang yang rata² rm200++.

Tudung raya tak beli. Ada lah beli tudung baru. Tapi bukan lah untuk raya & harga pun murah. Tahun lepas takde kasut raya, jadi tahun ni beli 2 pasang, pun yang murah juga. Somehow berkenan yang murah. Selamat bajet.

Beg raya last minute baru rasa nak beli. Sebab PMS lah tu. Khamis lepas, hampir nak beli beg preloved dari kawan, tapi rupanya bukan saiz yang aku nak. Petangnya selepas training, gi Alamanda masuk butik Coach, takde plak yang berkenan. Contact seller kat IG, dah nak balik kampung beraya pula 😢. So takde lah beg raya. Hehee tapi memang nafsu nak beg raya tu sebab PMS je. Tak pernah² sibuk nak beg raya.

Kuih raya pula memang target tahun ni no kuih raya untuk rumah sendiri. Beli kuih raya untuk Mak & mertua saje. Untuk rumah sendiri, beli kerepek² cukup.

Baju raya casual budak² sebelum puasa dah beli. Jadi masa puasa takde lah sibuk nak shopping beli baju anak². Shopping untuk diri sendiri tengok kalau ada masa. Tak beli banyak pun baju budak². Nak cari baju Honey susah sikit sebab saiz badannya yg bam bam tu. Takpe lah janji ada baju baru.

Untuk rumah takde yang baru. Teringin gak nak beli karpet baru sebenarnya. Tengok lah hujung minggu time raya nanti kalau ada masa & masih ada mood nak berkarpet baru.

Asalnya niat di hati teringin gak nak buat open house tahun ni. Tapi sebab badan tak kurus² tak jadi lah. Lame betul excuse kan. Tapi betul. Tak mau lah JD sorang kurus. Nanti orang tegur dia je. Lagipun pressure cooker Noxxa kan ada. Tahun ni kita utilize dia dulu.

Alhamdullilah tahun ni memang kurang sikit berbelanja. Since berbuka pun 25 hari masak sendiri, jimat gak belanja tang tu.

Antara juadah berbuka puasa yang dimasak

Honey & Iman ketika menunggu Papa fitting baju

InshaaAllah, semoga bertemu lagi Ramadhan tahun hadapan.

©2016 Posted from my Xperia Z

27 Ramadhan 1437H

Lagi 4 hari nak raya.

Mood memasak sebenarnya dah ke laut. Tapi terpaksa juga lah gigihkan diri. Nak buka puasa di luar, malas. Nak membeli lauk di pasar Ramadhan, takde yang menyelerakan.

Sehingga ke hari ini ada lah 5 hari aku tak memasak, membeli di luar sahaja. Pertama kali pada Jumaat, 12 Ramadhan. Singgah di Presint Diplomatik, bungkus lamb mendy. Jemu juga selama 11 hari makan nasi putih.

Kemudian minggu seterusnya hari Khamis. Tak larat sungguh nak memasak rasanya, jadi singgah di param beli nasi ayam. Makin hari, terasa makin takde mood nak memasak. Jadi minggu ni 3 hari berturut² tak memasak. Hari Rabu aku cuti kerana JD kene pergi ke site awal pagi. Jadi kene lah menguruskan budak² ke sekolah. Lagipun nak shopping sekali. Jadi ke IOI City & beli nasi ayam Chicken Rice Shop untuk berbuka. Khamis pula ada latihan, habis awal. Jadi singgah ke Alamanda, sambung shopping & sebab tak tau nak beli apa untuk berbuka, beli lagi nasi ayam CRS. Jumaat masih rasa malas nak memasak, jadi balik kerja singgah param beli nasi tomato pula.

Rasanya sepanjang cuti selama 4 hari sebelum raya ni, memang akan memasak lah. Menu hari ini, sambal udang, kangkung goreng & telur dadar. Ingat lepas berbuka nanti nak masak sup tulang sebab budak² suka sangat sup. Aku tak reti masak benda berkuah macam gulai & sup tanpa merasa. Tak reti nak bajet garam. Jadi kene lah tunggu berbuka baru masak.

Ok cukup pasal berbuka puasa. Seperti yang aku cerita di dalam post yang lepas, aim Ramadhan kali ini nak istiqamah. Alhamdulillah, masih gigih meneruskan tarawikh di rumah & amalan lain. Hakikatnya memang susah nak istiqamah ni lagi² di hujung Ramadhan. Ya lah mood memasak pun dah ke laut. Allah Maha Mengetahui & Bijaksana. Sebab itu lah ada malam lailatul qadr sebagai motivasi diri. Bayangkan kalau takde. Hmmm 😔. Tapi bab meningkatkan amalan macam gagal je 😢. Badan terasa penat lalu seperti tidak mampu melipat gandakan amalan. Astaghfirullah.. Caiyok² 💪💪💪.

Antara faktor rasa penat aku rasa sebab nak datang period. Ketika minggu pertama, aku dah cuti selama 6 hari. Kalau datang period seperti yang dijangka, maybe Isnin ni cuti balik, so 8 hari lah cuti.

Persiapan raya kita sambung dalam next post ya...

©2016 Posted from my Xperia Z

2 Ramadhan 1437

Ramadhan kareem peeps!

Alhamdulillah, berpeluang lagi menempuhi bulan yang mulia ini.

Alhamdulillah, I had a very good 1st day of Ramadhan.

I have enrolled Iman to Hani's school. So no need to stop by 2 places to pick them up. Yesterday, JD picked them up.

Yesterday, JD was on leave. It was exciting to see the house is clean when I arrived. I had planned to take leave just to clean up the house. Seeing the house is spotless now, no point to take leave to do so.

My pray is also granted this year. Government finally implements special working hours for Ramadhan which we are able to go home 30 minutes earlier with 30 minutes shorter for lunchbreak. Actually I wish we could go home 1 hour earlier but that's better than nothing rite.

After discussing with JD, he said he doesn't mind preparing the kids in the morning & sending them to school. So I decided to start working at 7:30. So I can punch out at 4.

Alhamdulillah... I feel more relax this Ramadhan. Yesterday was the 1st day & just like I expected, I didn't need to rush. I got ample time to prepare meals for iftar. I cooked all the lauk yesterday which were sambal daging, park choy with oyster source & telur dadar. JD went to pasar Ramadhan just to buy kuih which was seri muka. Just simple dishes for iftar but more than enough for all of us. I plan to cook more this Ramadhan & buy less. For this week, I already stock up raw foods like chicken, shrimp, fish & squid in the freezer & vegetables like park choy, eggplant & long bean in the fridge.

I even managed to take a nap for 20 minutes before preparing the meals. Even before Maghrib, I had done with repacking the kids' bags for school tomorrow. So after Isyak, there was not much left to do.

We had iftar at the dining table in the kitchen. It was so much easier to set up the table & clean afterwards because everything is just around. Yay, less works. At 7 the kids already asked for rice but we managed to talk to them to wait for a bit more so that we could  dine together.

I didn't go to surau/masjid to perform tarawikh. For the past 2 nighs, I did it alone at home. It is better that way I guess since it has been my routine that at 9:30 to 10 I'll bring the kids to the bedroom upstair & force them to sleep. Actually it's a failled attempt. They'll still play in the bedroom. I don't know how to make them sleep earlier. But I guess, if I prepare them to sleep later, they'll sleep later too. So, I'll perform tarawikh in the dim lit bedroom while in between ordering the kids to sleep.

So yes, so far I have a very good Ramadhan. Better than ordinary days I guess cos I feel calmer & somewhat less tired.

I don't have high goals this Ramadhan, just hopefully I could increase my ibadah & taqwa. However, I do hope I can be consistent even perform more ibadah until the end of Ramadhan especially the last 10 nites. I think that's the real challenge & I hope I can overcome it. InshaaAllah.

#hariharihariibu

Pasal sambutan hari ibu pun jadi isu.

Hmmm... Ada satu masa tu, aku pun tak pasti hukum Hari Ibu ni, so aku rasa tak payah lah sambut. I wrote about it here. Sebelum tu pun bukan sambut beriyer. Cuma telefon Mak kata I love you & mungkin belanja makan atau bagi hadiah. Bagi orang lain, mungkin la setiap hari dia buat macam tu so betul lah tu hari2 Hari Ibu. Tapi bukan aku. Rasa pelik pula telefon Mak saje2 nak bagitau sayang Mak. Ntah lah segan kot. Masa Hari Ibu atau hari jadi Mak, baru hilang segan tu.

So back to the year that I was kinda againts of Mother's Day, it made me think that I loose the opportunity to show appreciation to Mak, make her happy & gain pahala along the way. Fine, I could find any other day but I guess I didn't have the drive to do so since any other day is just other day.

So when people talk about everyday is a mother's day, I kinda feel annoyed. Yes, we should make our mother happy everyday by shower her with love, attention & presents ;). Just like I stated above, if we could do that everyday, so yes everyday is mother's day. But I'm pretty sure not all of us capable of doing so. Even worse, some of us at most of the times treat our friends better than our mothers. Not that we don't love our mother, just that we always take our mother for granted.

So if there's a day, any single day or couple of days that we can take sometime to actually show our love to our mothers, why not? Lillahita'ala.

Kepada mereka yang cakap tak perlu sambut Hari Ibu kerana hari2 adalah Hari Ibu, tanya diri sendiri kelmarin, semalam & hari ini apa yang kamu dah lakukan untuk buat ibu rasa istimewa & dihargai . Kalau ada jawapannya, alhamdulillah

Anyhow, it's a good goal to make everyday as a mother's day. Everyday is a day to do good deed to our parents & make them happy.

Simple... Let's being good to our parents first, then others.

Wish list...

It's just 10:30am, but I already feel sleepy. What a very unproductive weekend if I take a nap now.

So let's update the blog.

Guess what, contrary to my previous post, I've decided to buy an iPhone! It's all because I've fallen in love with Apple watch or iWatch. So in order to maximise the usage of the watch, I have to have an iPhone. Even for the 1st time setup, the  watch needs an iPhone. So ok fine, iPhone that's it. But I don't want to rush. I'll wait as long as I can wait & hope the 2nd generation of Apple watch will be launched by then. It'll be good too if I can wait until iPhone 7 is launched. But I bet the price will be very high. It'll be even better if I finally change my mind. The temptation to go to Machines right away & just bougth both phone & watch is always there. Right now I'm just being patient you know.

I'm still mad about Pandora. Hate it at the same time because if I couldn't control myself, I'd spend lots on it. Don't wanna to for a so called branded silver jewellery. So I have to contain my madness over Pandora.

Haihhh macam² nak beli. Kalau kaya tak apa lah. But even I'm not rich, it's ok. I have enough :). Alhamdulillah...

©2015 Posted from my Xperia Z

Two weeks ago actually...

2 weeks ago, Monday, 28/3/2016

Well one of my resolutions for this year is spend less & save more. It's not easy when the temptation is about everywhere... name it friends, families & social media. The temptation to have everything or something nice, new, high end, latest & fun.

The installment for the car that I'm driving now has settled already. The car itself is almost 11 years. At first, JD did... I don't know the word even in Malay... pujuk? Kenen? But it was something like that... me buying a new car. He suggested quite a few cars. I don't see the point since I'm very comfortable with the car. It's old but it works fine. That's all I care. Serve the purpose of transporting me to work everyday. Sometimes we switch car because he wants to go to his work site. Fine, his car is big, comfortable but seriously I don't like driving it. I have to be more careful because I can't just squeeze in like I normally do, need more space to park & feel bulky.

The handphone that I used now is already 3 years old. Can be considered as an old phone for some people. JD himself had changed his phone thrice within these 3 years. He used to use the same handphone like mine. He also encourages me to buy a new phone knowing that my current handphone is not up to standard compare to the latest one. My friends did suggest me buying an iPhone. Yup, I do think iPhone 6S in rose gold is gorgeous. But I'm comfortable using Android. I don't wanna a headache trying to sync my iPhone using iTunes just for the sake of transferring musics & videos. But for some using iPhone is considered cool & lavish. I do consider of switching to iPhone because I don't find any Android phones that I like nowadays. I don't want Samsung & Sony's Z5 design turns me off. But I kinda afraid I might don't like it. I don't like iTunes for sure... used to have an iPod & decided to stop using it just because I don't like to deal with iTunes. It might be the same situation like the car. Something lavish, nicer & considered cool for other people might not be for me.

Actually I typed the above paragraphs last Friday. Now reading it again, I'm not sure where I'm leading to. So let's just continue & finish it with whatever I'm thinking now.

Not to talk about handbag. I have several friends who wear high label designer handbag like LV, Prada, Gucci & even Chanel. But there's no pressure for me to wear one too. I do have a couple but I rarely wear them. There will be pressure if we feel like to compete. We tend to have the same luxurious thing & so called high lifestyle. Even the definition of high lifestyle is vague. Some people think by having branded item, some by dining at fine restaurants & some think it must be all of them.  We'll spend on something unnecessary just because to be looked great in a real life & worse, social medias especially.

Alhamdulillah I guess I'm not easily succumb to "peer-pressure" which actually doesn't really exist. It only exists in our mind. When other people talk about their achievements, vacations, meal they've eaten & goods they've bought, it's up to us to think that they're just bragging or showing off or just sharing their joy & excitation. Just like an FB status that I recently read about people who's 'eksyen'. It's either we 'eksyen' back or just listen & try to learn something from their stories. If we don't agree, just keep quite. That's what our Prophet (PBUH) encouraged. So we don't waste time on arguing, trying to compete on something that is only duniawi.

It's good to have a big house, a big car, spend on fine meals, travel oversea & wear designer things but in the end it's our life. How do we want to lead our lives are up to us. Do we prefer to have a lot of saving with moderate life style or just spend lavishly & have only enough until our next pay day? Am speaking in the context of middle income just like me & most people around me, not about rich people. The ideal of course having both. But as I always remind myself the best place to live is within your budget. & even we've gained more money, it's not an excuse to spend more cos when Allah blesses you financially, don't raise your standard of living, raise your standard of GIVING! InshaaAllah, as a reminder to myself.


Today, Friday, 15/4/2016...

Let's recite al-Kahf!

Istiqamah

Alhamdulillah... Di hari Jumaat, penghulu segala hari ini, aku telah khatam al-Quran. Sungguh agak mencabar sesi kali ini.

Lebih kurang 600 hari yang lalu, aku menyertai group WhatsApp membaca al-Quran 1 m/s sehari walaupun aku fikir lambatnya nak khatam kalau 1 m/s sehari. At least 600 hari, hampir 2 tahun tu. Aku rasa 1 m/s sehari adalah mudah kerana sebelumnya aku mampu buat lebih lebih tapi join je lah. Tak pun memang baca 1 m/s sahaja setiap hari, kemudian fokus kepada terjemahan & tafsir. Setiap hari, selepas Maghrib admin group ini akan update surah & ayat yang perlu dibaca pada hari itu.

Rupanya bukan mudah untuk istiqamah. Apabila aku start buat bisnes dengan kawan², aku semakin hanyut. Tidak terselak al-Quran. Agak lama. Semangat membaca tu pasang surut seperti air laut. Walaupun sesudah tarik diri, susah nak istiqamah semula. Hingga akhirnya aku tekad untuk catch up balik m/s² yang tertinggal. Alhamdulillah dalam masa 2 bulan aku berjaya catch up dengan konsisten membaca sekurang2nya 5 m/s sehari. Cuba lah kira berapa m/s sebenarnya aku dah tertinggal.

Syukur Allah temukan aku dengan group ini & menggerakkan hati aku untuk join. Kalau tak, mungkin aku terus hanyut tanpa reminder. Kurniaan lebihan rezeki datang dengan pekej sibuk & penat merupakan ujian juga. Ujian untuk istiqamah. Aku belajar erti biar sikit tapi berterusan, menjadi amalan setiap hari. Aku sedar bukan mudah nak istiqamah rupanya, lagi² bila diuji dengan duniawi. Bukan membaca al-Quran sahaja, malah amalan² lain juga. 

"Amal bagaimanakah yang paling disukai Allah?"
Jawab Rasulullah SAW, "Amal yang dilakukan secara tetap walaupun sedikit (berterusan)."
- Hadis Riwayat Muslim

©2016 Posted from my Xperia Z

Anak Mama

Malam tadi tiba2 JD cakap Iman ni bukan 'anak Papa'. Maknanya Iman kurang mesra dengan JD berbanding Honey. Aku ingatkan JD tak perasan, rupanya dia perasan juga. Bukan lah tahap tak mau langsung, tapi kalau boleh Iman memang nak berkepit dengan aku je. Ada juga masanya tak mau langsung dengan JD especially time nak tido. Kalau JD bawak dia naik atas, aku tak naik lagi, meraung2. Bila JD nak ke kedai, Iman tak nak ikut walaupun diajak melainkan Honey ikut sekali.

Dulu sebelum cerai susu, aku tak rasa Iman terlalu attach dengan aku & aku ingatkan dia nak kat aku sebab nak breastfeed je. Tapi memang sebelum cerai susu, kalau JD ajak keluar berdua, she was ok. Rupanya selepas cerai susu, makin melekat pulak. Mungkin setelah takde nenen, dia takut aku plak takde. Actually, she's still remember nenen even though I've never mentioned it. Once in a while, ada juga dia nak selak baju. Cepat2 aku bangun & buat keje lain.

Tapi luckily as I said before takde la dia tak mau langsung dengan JD. At least, kalau berjalan, dia still ok kalau JD yang dukung. I guess she's ok as long as I'm around. Mungkin juga faktor usia. Dulu masa kecik, tak kisah sangat. Tapi bila makin besar ni, makin memilih & 'ngengada' gak.

Memang Iman manja gila dengan aku. She also thinks that I'm exclusively hers. Honey pun sedar perkara ni. So kadang2 nak menyakat Iman, Honey saje manja2 dengan aku. Peluk, duduk atas riba... pastu panggil Iman. Bila Iman nampak, mula lah merengek & nak berkepit juga.

Iman juga pandai memujuk. Bila aku marah atau merajuk, mesti dia akan cakap, "Mama ye" banyak kali. "Ye" as in yellow. Aku pun tak tau "ye" tu apa. Tapi tau lah maknanya dia tau aku marah & nak pujuk balik.

Dulu ingatkan kalau dah cerai susu, senang lah nak bergerak ke mana2... nak out-station ke. Nampak gaya, mencabar gak ni.

Asrama

Sehari dua ini, FB timeline aku dipenuhi dengan status2 para ibu bapa menghantar anak2 mereka ke MSRM & sekolah berasrama penuh (SBP). Mesti gembira & bangga kan anak2 bersekolah yang berprestij, yang hanya menempatkan pelajar2 terpilih.

Bagi aku & JD, kami pernah berbincang sebelum Honey lahir lagi. Anak2 kami tidak boleh masuk asrama. JD pernah bersekolah asrama ketika Tingkatan 4 & 5, & baginya duduk asrama tidak seronok, jauh sekali mengajar anak2 berdikari. Aku setuju kerana melihat ramai rakan2 sekolah asrama yang lebih manja daripada aku. Mungkin kerana bila bersekolah asrama, masa pulang ke rumah diraikan oleh ibu bapa & dilayan agak istimewa. Bagi aku sendiri pula, sekolah biasa pun ok. Aku mendapat tawaran ke MRSM Jasin ketika Tingkatan 4, tetapi aku tolak. Aku percaya, di sekolah biasa pun boleh berjaya. Yang pasti boleh tentukan sendiri waktu belajar. Tidak perlu mengikut waktu yang disediakan oleh sekolah, yang biasanya dipanggil prep(aration) class. Paling penting, aku ingin melihat sendiri anak2 membesar di depan mata. Bagi aku usia 12 tahun masih terlalu awal untuk dilepaskan. Lebih2 lagi anak perempuan. Kerana anak perempuan juga lah aku rasa JD mempunyai kuasa veto untuk menentukan Honey & Iman boleh masuk asrama atau tidak. Jadi kalau ditakdirkan mereka ingin masuk asrama, kene lah pujuk JD.

Bukan untuk menghakimi, tetapi aku merasakan seperti menjadi suatu kebanggaan pula bila anak dapat tawaran & masuk asrama. Ada juga yang aku lihat berdasarkan status & komen, anak tidak berapa teringin nak masuk asrama tetapi si ibu yang beriyer2. Susah juga aku nak memahami kerana bagi aku sekolah bukan faktor penentu kejayaan & di sekolah biasa juga boleh berjaya. Sebab itu juga aku sedikit pun tidak merasa terkilan apabila menolak untuk masuk MRSM. Nasib baik Mak tak tergolong dalam golongan ibu yang beriyer2 ni. Tak tahu lah jika di kemudian hari aku juga akan beriyer2. Ketika itu, kalau membaca pos ini pasti aku akan malu sendiri.

Zaman sekarang sememangnya tak sama macam dulu termasuklah pendidikan. Aku lihat zaman sekarang, ramai ibu bapa memilih sekolah swasta, atas alasan lebih islamik, medium bahasa Inggeris & sebagainya. Pastinya sebagai ibu bapa kita mahukan yang terbaik untuk anak2. Jadi mungkin kerana itu, ramai yang memilih untuk memasukkan anak2 ke sekolah berasrama seawal 12/13 tahun kerana sememangnya sekolah berasrama seperti MRSM & SBP mempunyai reputasi yang lebh baik. Risau juga kerana kemungkinan besar yang tinggal di sekolah biasa adalah anak2 yang kurang berpotensi dari segi akademik. Kurang berpotensi dari segi akademik ya, tak semestinya tidak boleh berjaya. Boleh dilihat rakan2 sekelas aku, mungkin mereka kurang bijak, keputusan PMR tidak melayakkan mereka ke sekolah lain, mereka tiada pilihan untuk bertukar sekolah tetapi boleh dikatakan semua sudah berjaya sekarang. Ada seorang tu, 2 kali mengulang SPM, sekarang sudah bergelar pensyarah & sedang menyambung pengajian di peringkat PhD.

Tapi ya lah, perkembangan anak2 juga dipengaruhi oleh rakan2 mereka melainkan anak2 ini mepunyai jati diri yang kuat (macam aku :D). Tapi apa lah yang dapat dijangkakan daripada anak2 yang baru meningkat remaja ni kan. Lebih2 lagi dalam era yang mencabar dengan terlalu banyak unsur2 luar & gejala sosial. Mungkin ini akan jadi faktor untuk aku membuat keputusan untuk Honey & Iman kelak. Apa yang aku harapkan & sentiasa berdoa semoga mereka menjadi anak2 yang baik, berjaya di dunia & akhirat. InsyaAllah, tak payah masuk asrama. Duduk rumah, Mama jaga ok. Nak makan apa, nanti Mama masak. Huhuhuu...

Iman cerai susu

Hari ni Iman genap 2 tahun 3 bulan. Guess what?? Dah 10 hari Iman putus susu! Yes, no more breast milk for Iman. No more nenen. Phewww... At last. Oh ya Iman memang panggil nenen. Kalau susu maknanya susu botol.

Sebenarnya aku takde plan beriyer pun nak ceraikan Iman dengan susu badan. Ntah kenapa, tetiba pagi Ahad 17/1, ketika Iman mintak nak nen, terus terdetik cuba lah letak asam jawa. Calit asam jawa extra,  pastu bagi la Iman nen.  Dia hisap sekejap, terus buat muka macam orang nak muntah. Cepat² suruh dia minum air. Dia tengok sebelah lagi ada calitan asam jawa gak, tak jadi nak nen. Pastu dia ada la dia mintak, tapi bila tengok ada asam jawa tu, dia tak nak.

Alhamdulillah, walaupun tak dapat nen sepanjang hari tu, takde la Iman mengamuk. Malam hari, Iman tidur sendiri tanpa nenen. Malam pertama tu, Iman bangun 3x & nak nenen. Aku kata tak sedap, dia nak gak. Bagi je la. Dia hisap pastu terus buat muka. Aku suruh dia tidur balik & alhamdulillah elok je dia tidur balik. Memang sungguh dipermudahkan perjalanan putus susu Iman ni. Iman cuma mengamuk sekali je iaitu pada malam kedua, tu pun dah pukul 6 pagi. Dia seolah² mengigau sebab pas aku dukung dia, bawak turun, elok plak diam. Pastu bawak naik atas balik, elok sambung tidur.

My tips for weaning off - prepare mentally, be determine & strictly consistent. Ibu kene betul² bersedia dari segi mental. Tak perlu emosi. Mungkin Iman ok, rilek je sebab aku memang takde perasaan sedih ke apa. Bagi aku, memang dah sampai masanya Iman berhenti susu badan. Dah 2 tahun kan. Jadi tak payah nak sedih² & berdrama. Maybe mother's emotion will reflect to baby since there's bonding between them. So kalau ibu sedih, mungkin anak pun akan sedih & beremosi. Mungkin lah kan sebab aku selalu baca susahnya nak putus susu, si ibu sedih,  anak plak mengamuk. Satu lagi, bila dah mula teruskan saje. Jangan nak bagi sikit² ke. Kene rajin la calit & pastikan susu tu sentiasa tak sedap ;-). Tak boleh mengelat.

Cuma masa mula² tu aku risau gak sebab selama ni Iman bila dengan aku memang taknak susu botol. Bila putus susu ni, dia masih taknak botol bila dengan aku. Maknanya kalau cuti, sepanjang cuti tu lah dia langsung tak minum susu. Tapi bila tengok dia tidur ok je, ok la tu. Rasanya memang susu badan pun dah cair selama ni macam air je. Jadi takde beza pun. Malam tadi Iman pukul 8 dah tidur. Pukul 4:30 dia bangun mengamuk sikit. Aku tanya nak susu tak, dia jawab taknak. Pastu dia kata nak air. Bagi air kosong, terus mata kuyu balik & sambung tidur.

Alhamdulillah, sejak berhenti susu badan ni, biasanya Iman tidur lena sepanjang malam. So yes, I'm one happy mom... :-D. Tapi takde la lena sangat sebab si kakak masih bangun malam minta susu. But certainly better than before. Dulu, biasanya Iman akan bangun 3x nak nenen & mengempeng. Kadang² sampai sakit belakang dibuatnya & malam² buta bukan Iman yang mengamuk, Mamanya ni yang mengamuk sebab geram dengan Iman yang nak mengempeng. Nak buat keje macam memasak pun senang. Takde lah masa sibuk² di dapur tiba² datang budak kecik ni merengek nak nenen. Ohh it's like having a new kind of freedom. Hahaa. So yes, one of my 2016 resolutions has accomplished.

Iman, tepat sebulan yang lalu.

©2016 Posted from my Galaxy Note 8.0

2015: Chicken Pox

Huhuu, still in the year of 2015.

Since I was pregnant with Honey, I've been saving my annual leaves for emergency case such as kid got chicken pox & sick. So alhamdulillah, I have quite many annual leaves that I carried forward that taking leave is not a big deal to me. Also alhamdulillah, despite I'm ready to take leaves whenever the kids got sick, they actually rarely got sick.

However, in 2015 both of them had chicken pox. First, it was Iman in late of August. No high fever whatsoever, I just noticed red blisters at her body. Since it was my first experience, I got a bit nervous. I didn't know exactly what to do & couldn't wait to bring her to a clinic on the next day. Alhamdulillah, the doctor said it was still at early stage that it can be controlled by antiviral. Iman remained active & easy to be taken care of. However I was quite busy so I couldn't take leaves for more than a week straight. Basically, me & JD took turn taking leaves.

After went to a clinic, kita makan dulu! The blisters weren't so obvious but they were there.

Da kenyang, balik tido, calit losyen gatal...

Then in late of October, I noticed blisters on Honey's body. Coincidentally, I had a 2-week course so taking leaves wasn't an option at all. Luckily it was Honey, who was big enough to stay with her Nenek. She didn't mind going to Nenek's house. I guess she'd rather go anywhere but her kindy. Even after she was recovered, she still claimed she had chicken pox by pointing at the scars & made an excuse for not going to kindy. Like Iman, Honey also didn't suffer from high fever due to the chicken pox. She remained active but now & then would whine about feeling itchy.

Happy Honey at Nenek's house despite suffered from chicken pox.

When Iman had chicken pox, I was quite afraid if I'd get infected too. Mak said I only had chicken pox when I was a baby. So there was a big possibility I'd get infected again. However, alhamdulillah, I didn't. I guess I was immunized somehow. As for JD, he already had suffered from it when he was a big kid.

2015: Heart Attack

Yup still in 2015.

JD asked me if I remember about anything special today. 6/1... nope in my memory. It turned out, a year before, it was a day when JD had a heart attacked. Seriously. Not yet 40 but already had a heart attack.

Reminisce about the day, it was Wednesday morning, about 10am. I was shocked when I received a simple Whatsapp message with lots of typo from JD saying that he had stroked by a heart attack. I tried to call him but failed. Later I received a call from him, but on the other line it was his colleague informing me about his condition. So I rushed to Hospital Serdang. Calmly rushed. Yup. Somehow, I managed to compose myself & stay calm. While driving, I told myself I was ready for any results. Seriously I didn't cry at all.

When I arrived at Hospital Serdang, looking for a car park, I received another call, requested me to be hurry to give consent for the doctor to perform angiogram on JD. A few minutes after while I was still looking for a car park, another call came in informed me that the doctor already started performing angiogram on JD & the consent was given by JD himself since he was still awake.

I parked my car & JD colleagues was waiting for me outside the ER. Then they escorted me to level 4 I think, where the cardiology department was located. I could see code blue signs along the way. Reminded me to ER & Grey's Anatomy TV series where when a patient suddenly have a heart problem or cardiac arrest, code blue alarm would be called.

At code blue area.

I had to wait for more than 1 hour. JD's colleagues already gone by then. I called Kak Sal & asked her help to picked Honey up from kindy cos it already showed 12pm. Then, JD was pushed out on a movable bed & transferred to ICCU which was ICU for coronary care, hence the intensive coronary care unit (ICCU).

After angiogram was performed.

He was there for 2 nights I think, yup I already lost the memory, despite his good condition. Yes, he looked seriously healthy. But that's the normal procedure for cardiac problem, despite physically healthy, a close monitor & care has to be taken cos once the attack strikes again, it can be a flat line for the patient.

Then, he was transferred to WCCU, still in the same compound. The doctor told me for cardiac problem, a patient have to stay in the hospital for at least 4 nights. Yup JD was already felt restless & couldn't wait to discharge. On Sunday, finally the doctor allowed him to be discharged.

Back to the moment when JD had the heart attack, based on his story & his colleagues', after sending Honey to kindy, he arrived at his office around 8:30am, sweating & heavily breathing. When his colleagues asked him about his condition, he said he was ok & just need to lie down for a sec. His colleague insisted him to go to a hospital. JD agreed to go & said he could drive himself. But his colleagues didn't allow him & sent him instead. At the ER, the medical staff took a look at JD & monitored his ECG. Then, the code blue was called. He told JD that his heart rate or something like that was too high & he needed to be treated immediately. So, it was really an emergency call anyway.

It could be worse. It could be a death sentence for JD. I guess life is so unpredictable indeed.

Alhamdulillah. All is well anyhow.

From 2015 to 2016

Back to 2015...

# Honey started going to kindy. She did cry on the first week of the school & the week after. I think it took months for her to accept the fact that she had to go to school. Although it took her quite sometimes to adjust to the routine, she did progressing but still it was a tiring ordeal to wake her up & prepare her in the morning.

# I started up a business with my colleagues. Actually we started it on Dec 2014. Early 2015 was quite a busy time for me. I had to pick Honey up on the afternoon & send her to the nursery. At the same time I was busy with the business. The lunch break was the time to survey the tailoring shops, have discussions & plan everything regarding our business. However on early April I quitted & sold my shares to my business partners. Beforehand, we managed to launch 2 products. So we did generate some profits :-D. This experience deserves a dedicated post. I have been planning to write about it since last year & I’m still planning on it ;-).

# Work wise, one of my project finished on April. The other one was supposed to be finished on Dec but wil be extended until this year. I am the project leader, so eventually it was up to me. It was hard to juggle between work & business. This was one of the reason why did I quit. For somebody who work full time & do business, it was a lie if they say the  business does not interfere the working hours.


2016...

# Honey went to a new kindy. Yes, we decided to stop sending her to the old kindy & register her to a new one. She went for a trial for a week in Nov & she seemed to prefer it. Furthermore, once we sent her for trial at the new kindy, there was like no turning back cos she insisted not going back to the old one. So had to register again, pay everything including new school uniforms. The monthly new kindy fee is even more expensive than the old one. I just hope we've made the best choice for Honey. Will write more about this in separate post.

# Ok 2016 resolutions:

• Eat less, slim down before raya :-P.
• Prepare PhD proposal... this one is tough cos I have no idea whatsoever but I have to start somewhere anyway.
• Spend less, save more, be rich... hahaa.
• Spend more time teaching Honey & Iman especially at night depsite feeling tired.
• Tidy & clean the house... I think this is quite impossible but there's no harm in wishing rite ;-).
• Wean off Iman from breastfeeding... she has to stop this year.
• Blog regularly... huhuu.
• Perform solat earlier & never miss reading Quran everyday.

In shaa Allah...