Due Date!

25/10/2011... Today is my expected due date to deliver Honey. Alhamdulillah, Honey had been delivered safely 2 weeks earlier, which was exactly at week 38 of the pregnancy.

Suddenly I wonder, if I insist on waiting & hoping for normal delivery, when actually would I met Honey? But I guess, this is it, this is the fate & I couldnt be more grateful :-).

Actually I wanna write about my experience on delivering Honey. Mesti ramai yg nak tau kn (tetiba feeling mcm ramai reader) how I came up with the decision to go thru c-sect at last minute, had discussion about it with my OB at 10am, got my OB approval, just booked any available bed, went back home to take baby & my stuff, surrendered (being warded) at ~1pm, being prepared for operation at ~2:30pm, pushed to OT at ~3pm & finally Honey was born at 4:09pm 11/10/2011.

Eh somehow I hv summarized almost the whole story. On how I came up with the final decision, it was actually JD's. I had checkup on Thursday, the week before. Coincidentally, my appointment was on the evening & JD was able to accompany me. After listening to Dr.Hamidah's explanation & rational why we had been given the option, JD thought it made sense. I felt the same way too when I 1st listened to the explanation. So we came up with the final decision & I called DH on Friday to tell her that we opt for c-sect where she asked me to meet her on Tuesday, 11/10/11 for further dicussion. The rest is as summarized above ;-).

Feeling demoralized

Dont take it wrong, I'm happy with my current new life. Cuma rite now I'm kinda feeling demoralized on breastfeeding Honey.

If before delivering, I was too ambitious to dream on having a natural childbirth, not for breastfeeding though since I believe it's strongly depends on rezeki masing2. However, I hv to say the strict rule at HPJ which bans formula milk really boost my confidence to BF Honey. Somehow, whenever I BF Honey, I feel our bond is tighten & I guess the feeling is exclusive between the mother & the baby.

Ok la direct to my problems on BF...

After a week, the milk supply wasnt enough. So terpaksa campur. Cuma bagi formula milk pagi & tgh malam. At the same time, pergelangan tangan kiri aku sakit start hari Sabtu minggu pertama Honey dilahirkan which made it difficult for me to carry Honey & latch-on. So I went to see a doc & been given medicines. Since I was on medication I couldnt BF Honey for 3 days. Masa ni mmg stress gila. Dalam hati frust hanya Tuhan yg tau. Lagi2 masa awal2 dia meragam macam nak 'bergantung'. I kept pumping regularly though. But I hv to throw away the milk. On the 1st & 2nd day, there was improvement. However, on the last day, suddenly the milk production dropped. Stress lagi.

Tiba masanya to BF Honey back. It becomes harder to latch-on. Seems like Honey has nipple-confused problem. Couldnt blame her. 3 days is quite a long time. Bila nak BF je, kene bg skit susu botol dulu. Then, baru BF. Sigh. On the milk production, dah minum byk air, oat, susu, makan lobak putih etc, rasanya tang tu gak. But it's not the main problem since I think still quite enough for Honey. Cuma kene improve dr segi kepekatan.

I think the main problem that demoralized me is my left hand which still hurts until today. It has been almost 2 weeks now & am thiking of going to a clinic again which means I might be on medication again, sooner or later.

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Introducing...

A new main character in my life.

PurPle Jr... my precious Honey.


PurPle punya baby girl =)

Was born on Tuesday, 11-10-11.
Alhamdulillah.

In The Womb

Baby's 1st pic ever. At week 8...

Subhanallah. It was almost unbelievable to see that little fetus was actually alive. Still remember the feeling when the doc showed me the heart. I could see the heartbeat. Amazing.

20 weeks later...

Love this pic so much especially the lower lip. Terjuih gitu. The unborn baby was asleep during the 3D pic was taken. Geram tengok pipi dia yang tembam.