Hari ini aku meninggalkan Honey lagi. Huwaaaa! Sungguh aku tak rasa seronok. Dalam diam, aku bertekad tak mau lah out-station dah walaupun cuma 1 minggu sampai Honey dah pandai cakap & faham sikit which is 2 years old maybe. I guess I just have to say bye bye to on-job training & attachment. Note to myself, apply PhD so that tak yah fikir pasal kursus/latihan lagi for next 4 years.
Macam2 bermain di fikiran. Dah lah Honey kurang sihat sekarang. I try to be +ve, I know that Honey will be in good hands just like before when I went to Delft but somehow still I feel worried. Ni baru anak sorang, dah risau nak mampus... kalau ramai tak tau lah camna. Sometimes I guess not only I'm not fit physically to have more kids, but I'm not fit emotionally too. I read somewhere that once you have a child it's possible to be worried 24/7. Very true.
Somehow I feel so tired right now even though it was only 2 hours flight. Maybe because I could hardly sleep last night. So that's all for today. Good nite from Jakarta.
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